Tình Yêu Ơi! Tình Yêu ...
“Unlike other mornings, today the morning came with sunlight and without the heat. Here, it’s not unusual for the temperature to rise up to 80 degree early morning and hovering there to its climatic point of 100 degree at mid-day around this time of the year. One day, I came home late at night from drinking with a group of friends. Deadly tired, I went lying in my bed and fell to sleep almost immediately. I woke up soaking wet with my sweats that formed like pots of water all around me. The feel was like I was lying in a bathtub filled with water and sleeping through! I had forgotten to turn on the air conditioner that night! … Living FOR the air-conditioner! Though, many times I was hungry like a cow, I refused to eat out at places because there were no air-conditioning. My life’s here revolving around that miracle machine that human ever invented. Needless to say, I sweat like a pig whenever I have to go out in this city.
I know I have changed physically a lot, and my body has also responded to this environment differently. There would have been hardly a complain from me when I was in my teen living here, playing outdoor games such as badminton, volleyball, and even soccer with the neighbors' kids under the same condition.
Spiritually, rather than changing my true feelings, I felt like there was some sorts of protective outer shelves that were actually developed and changed depending upon the environments. My mind and heart were always protected under layers of preconceived feelings. The feel of affectionate love was one, for example. What was it? What should I expect of it when it came? What should I expect of it when it went? In the very simplest form, I believed It was the desire to be with a woman, then I would expect certain things from both, or at least from me, when I would be with the woman; and, I would expect certain things from both, or at least from me, when I would be without the woman. In another word, I had planned and developed the exact sorts of protective measures in my heart for everything I conceived as affectionate love!
Incredibly, Love was like that for me. I had never considered for a slightest moment that I don't know love, I shouldn't expect anything when it comes, and even less so when it goes. "
TVN 10/14/04
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Tình yêu ơi có gì khi em đến ?
Tình yêu ơi mất em có còn gì ?
Ta nào biết hay chỉ là vụn vỡ
Gói ghém ảo hình cho mối tình si
Những ngày mơ tìm yên vui lặng lẽ
Đêm trãi dài mộng về thắm bờ mi
Câu ca tình nghe như nỗi sầu bi
Rồi cũng là trôi xa niềm vọng ước
Tay gối đầu thả hồn theo làn khói
Suy ngẫm cuộc tình hiểu được chi đâu ?
Không mong đợi vì tình thì vẫn thế!
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10/14/04
