Tìm Vào Quên Lãng
“He was a small guy in his late 20's, about 5’4’’, and 110 Lbs roughly. “Hey, motherf...er! Do you wanna die?” Spitefully, He screamed angrily at me when I over-stepped on his foot while wandering on the street trying to find my way around this area. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to …” I said embarrassingly and quickly walked away as I really didn’t want to make a scene. The street was crowded. My frame being at least 5’’ taller and 50 Lbs bigger than him, I wouldn’t be at the disadvantage at all if a physical fight broke out, I thought to myself.
I’ve got only one more night to be here. Tomorrow, I’ll be leaving and will never know when I will be back again. Tonight, I save the time for myself. Walking alone and thinking about the well-wishing party that was meant to send me away. There, they were, among relatives and friends, faces appearing one at a time: Phúc was pretty, warm, and very religious. She couldn’t be a managerial professional at her age in this country without her exceptional intelligence. Ngà was nice, sweet, and womanly. It could be her nature that she was sweet; but, it could also be by dealing with all types of people in her capacity as a Server that she appeared to be kind and caring very womanly. Tuyết was just a sweet girl. She always seemed to try to act as a woman, but it was undeniably being at 22 she couldn’t make herself older than who she really was. I just knew that Tuyết had feeling for me. At one point getting alone with her, she asked if I had any plan to come back any time soon. She seemed to be genuinely sad with her eyes moist. I thought she was going to cry.
I was deeply in thoughts when the incidence happened. What is there to remember? Except for the moment like this! There are people all over the earth. I am just one of them who happen to have many people to think of and feeling so lonesome at the same time. My mind is rushing with the memories collected over the past weeks, I walk but it’s more like running. Gosh! … I know I am going to miss this place terribly just as I have been missing it for half of my life …”
11/28/04
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