CHI? MO^.T LA^N` RO^I` THO^I

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CHI? MO^.T LA^N` RO^I` THO^I
Vu*a` bu*o*c’ cha^n ra khoi? hotel, to^i dda~ phai? ddo^i’ die^.n vo*i’ mo^.t khi’ ha^.u nong’ bu*c’ kho’ chi.u va` mui` dda^t’ la^n~ vo*i’ mui` ha^m` co^ng’ xo^ng le^n lam` cho to^i cam? tha^y’ kho’ tho*?. Sau 20 na(m to^i mo*i’ tro*? la.i SaiGon, tru*o*c’ khi dda(.t cha^n xuo^ng’ sa^n bay Ta^n So*n Nha^t’, trong tri’ to^i hinh` dung ra nhu*ng~ canh? dde.p cua? thanh` pho^’ ddu*o*.c mang te^n tha^.t kie^u “ Hon` Ngo.c Vie^n~ DDo^ng” vo*i’ khi’ ha^.u mat’ me? va` e^m di.u . To^i mo* ho^` tu*o*ng? tu*o*.ng ra canh? to^i ngo^i ` tre^n chie^c’ honda lai’ ddi kha(p’ thanh` pho^’ dde^? hong’ mat’ va` tha^u tha^.p nhu*ng~ cai’ hay, cai’ dde.p cua? thanh` pho^’ to^i ye^u. O^i tho^i, nhu*ng~ hinh` anh? dde.p dde? ddo’ dda~ tan bie^n’ ddi vo*i’ su*c’ nong’ nhu* thie^u nhu* ddo^t’ cua? SaiGon. To^i con` nho*’ hai ca^u dda^u` cua? bai` hat’ Ao’ Lua. Ha` DDo^ng do nha.c si~ Ngo^ Thu.y Mie^n sang’ tac’: “Na(ng’ SaiGon, anh ddi ma` cho*.t mat’. Bo*i~ vi` em ma(.c ao’ lu.a Ha` DDo^ng”. Theo to^i thi` cha(c’ luc’ ddo’ nha.c si~ Ngo^ Thu.y Mie^n ddang ye^u co^ nang` ma(.c ao’ lu.a Ha` DDo^ng qua’ ddo^. dde^n’ no^i~ lam` cho con tim cua? o^ng bi. chai cu*ng’ ddi, ddo^ng` tho*i` da thi.t cua? o^ng cung~ tro*? thanh` da^y` co^.m le^n ne^n mo*i’ cam? tha^y’ cai’ na(ng’ cua? SaiGon` mat’ nhu* lo*i` o^ng noi’ trong bai` nha.c, con` to^i thi` chi? tha^y’ na(n’g SaiGon nhu* cai’ lo` lu*a?.
Tru*o*c’ cu*a? hotel dda~ co’ 3 chie^c’ xe hoda dda^.u sa(n~ ddo*.i to^i, mo^.t chie^c’ la` cua? anh to^i, hai chie^c’ kia la` cua? hai ca(.p vo*. cho^ng` ba.n la^u na(m vo*i’ anh a^y’ luc’ con` tho*i` ca(p’ sach’ dde^n’ tru*o*ng`, hai gia ddin`h nay` co’ ra.p ban’ ddo^` kho^ va` trai’ ca^y ngoai` cho*. SaiGon. Trong ma^y’ ngay` ga^n` dda^y, kho^ng hie^u? sao la.i buo^n ban’ e^’ a^m?, sa(n~ di.p anh to^i ve^` tha(m que^ hu*o*ng, ho. giao qua^y` hang` cho con gai’ tro^ng coi dde^? ddi cho*i vo*i’ anh to^i cho khua^y khoa?. Vu*a` tro^ng tha^y’ to^i anh cua? to^i le^n tie^ng’ du.c:
_Le^n xe mau ddi, ddu*ng’ du*o*i’ nay` ddo*.i em ma` muo^n’ bi. che^t’ thie^u vo*i’ cai’ nong’ nay` luo^n, con` em thi` cu*’ tan` tan` o*? tre^n ddo’.
_Em phai? mang ti’ makeup, thoa kem cho^ng’ na(ng’ va` cho.n ao’ qua^n` cho ho*.p vo*i’ chuye^n’ ddi trong ngay` chu*’, dda^u co’ gio^ng’ nhu* ddan` o^ng cac’ anh, ddi dda^u cung~ chi? xo? vao` cai’ qua^n` Jean vo*i’ ao’ thun la` xong .
Tha^.t ra anh to^i chi? ma(.c co’ chie^c’ qua^n` short vo*i’ chie^c’ ao’ thun tho^i chu*’ lam` sao ma(.c qua^n` Jean vo*i’ cai’ nong’ cua? SaiGon ddu*o*.c
Vu*a` noi’, to^i vu*a `leo le^n ye^n sau cua? chie^c’ xe DreamII anh to^i dda~ mua dde^? lam` phu*o*ng tie^.n di chuye^n? trong tho*i` gian chung’ to^i o*? Vie^.t Nam. DDo*.i to^i ngo^i` vu*ng~ dda(ng` sau, anh to^i cho xe chay tha(ng? ra be^n’ so^ng Ba.ch DDa(ng` dde^? dung` co*m tru*a tre^n nha` hang` no^i? cho mat’.
Sau mo^.t ngay` lai’ xe kha(p’ SaiGon dde^? to^i co’ the^? tham quan canh? va^.t va` ghe’ mua vai` loa.i trai’ ca^y ma` luc’ con` nho? to^i u*a thich’, hai ca(.p vo*. cho^ng` ba.n cua? anh to^i ve^` nha`, con` anh em to^i thi` ve^` la.i hotel ngay trung ta^m thanh` pho^’ SaiGon. Tru*o*c’ khi anh to^i ddi vao` phong`, to^i nha(c’ la.i mo^.t la^n` nu*a~ dde^? anh a^y’ kho^ng que^n go.i mu*o*n’ cho chung’ to^i mo^.t chie^c’ xe van to^t’ dde^? chung’ to^i ddi du li.ch tu*` Nam ra Ba(c’ ro^i` to^i mo*i’ ddi ve^` phong` min`h na(m` nghi?. Vao` trong phong`, to^i co*i? nhanh bo^. ao’ qua^n` ddang ma(.c ra cha.y vo^.i vao` phong` ta(m’ de^? ta(m’ go^.i he^t’ khoi’ xa(ng cua? xe va` bu.i ddu*o*ng` bam’ tre^n minh`, tre^n dda^u` toc’ to^i. Sau khi dda~ ta(m’ go^.i sa.ch se~ to^i cam? tha^y’ khoe? ho*n va` ddo*~ me^.t nhie^u`. DDa(.t lu*ng xuo^ng’ giu*o*ng` xoai? tay cha^n cho thoai? mai’, sau mo^.t ngay` bi. hanh` ha. bo*i~ su*c’ nong’ cua? ma(.t tro*i` va` su*. o^n` ao` cua? tie^ng’ ken` xe ma` ngu*o*i` o*? Vie^.t Nam thu*o*ng` dung` nhu* ddo’ la` lua^.t ddi.nh cho nhu*ng~ ngu*o*i` lai’ xe. Vi` qua’ me^.t moi? co^.ng the^m ho*i mat’ toa? ra kha(p’ phong` tu*` cai’ may’ la.nh ga(n’ tre^n vach’ tu*o*ng` ga^n` tra^n` nha`, to^i ddi vao` gia^c’ ngu? mo^.t cach’ mau le.
Tam’ gio*` sang’, khi to^i ddang con` say ngu? thi` nghe co’ tie^ng’ go~ cu*a? va` tie^ng’ cua? anh to^i go.i to^i thu*c’ da^.y dde^? ba(t’ dda^u` cho chuye^n’ du li.ch ma` chung’ to^i dda~ ban` ddi.nh. To^i vo^.i va~ ta(m’ go^.i ro^i` la^y’ theo vai` bo^. ao’ qua^n` va` mo^.t vai` mon’ va^.t du.ng bo? vao` cai’ vali nho? co’ banh’ xe keo’. Ma(.c chie^c’ ao’ vai? sat’ nach’ mau` café su*a~ nha.t va` chie^c’ qua^n` lu*ng~ ga^n` to*i’ go^i’ ddo^ng` mau`, to^i tin cha(c’ la` se~ kho^ng bi. che^t’ nong’ tre^n xe, dde^? cho cha(c’ a(n, to^i con` mang theo vai` bo^. ddo^` mat’ dde^? thay ddo^i? do.c ddu*o*ng`. DDung’ 10 gio*` sang’, chung’ to^i le^n ddu*o*ng` ro*i` khoi? thanh` pho^’ SaiGon ddi ngao du so*n thuy?, chuye^n’ ddi nay` go^m` co’ 7 ngu*o*i` tre^n xe: hai anh em toi, hai ca(.p vo*. cho^ng` ba.n cua? anh to^i va` tai` xe^’ cung~ la` ngu*o*i` hu*o*ng’ da^n~ chung’ to^i ddi tham quan nhu*ng~ tha(ng’ canh? o*? Vie^.t Nam.
Tra.m nghi? dda^u` tie^n cua? chung’ to^i la` thanh` pho^’ DDa` La.t. Khi’ ha^.u o*? DDa` La.t su*o*ng mu` mat’ la.nh, ngu*o*i` ta ddi la.i cung~ kho^ng ddo^ng la(m’ ne^n cam? tha^y’ de^~ chi.u , cha(ng? bu` vo*i’ SaiGon, luc’ nao` cung~ ddo^ng ngu*o*i` va` o^n` ao`, la.i con` cai’ na(ng’ che^t’ ngu*o*i` lam` cho ngu*o*i` ta cam? tha^y’ kho’ chi.u. To^i’ ho^m ddo’ chung’ to^i ddi tham quan cho*. DDa` La.t, cho*. nay` ddu*o*.c go.i la` cho*. DDi.a ngu.c. So*~ di~ ngu*o*i` da^n o*? dda^y go.i ddo’ la` cho*. DDi.a ngu.c vi` cho*. ddu*o*.c nhom’ phie^n vao` dde^m. Giu*a~ cho*. co’ cai’ thang ba(ng` dda’ cao ma^y’ chu.c na^c’. Ma^y’ ngu*o*i` ban’ hang` rong nhu* bun’ rie^u, o^c’ luo^.c, o^c’ lang xao` du*a`, ho^.t vi.t lo^.n v…v…., ho. ban’ ngay tre^n nhu*ng~ ba^.c thang dda’. To^i keo’ anh to^i la.i mo^.t quan’ o^c’ dde^? ddu*o*.c thu*o*ng? thu*c’ la.i mon’ o^c’ le^~ cha^m’ nu*o*c’ ma(m’ gu*ng` va` o^c’ lang xao` du*a`. To^i con` mua the^m vai` mon’ qua` lu*u nie^.m co’ hinh` tu*o*ng noi’ ve^` DDa` La.t.
Sang’ ho^m sau, chung’ to^i le^n ddu*o*ng` dde^? tie^p’ tu.c cuo^.c hanh` trinh` ddi ra Ba(c’. Xe cha.y ddu*o*.c vai` ngay`thi` chung’ to^i dda~ dde^n’ cha^n ddeo` Hai? Va^n, tru*o*c’ khi cho xe le^n ddeo`, anh to^i dde^` nghi. tai` xe^’ cho xe va` mo.i ngu*o*i` nghi? ngo*i mo^.t ti’ ro^i` mo*i’ tie^p’ tu.c. Nu*a? gio*` sau, chie^c’ xe cua? chung’ to^i ba(t’ dda^u` leo le^n ngo.n ddeo`. Xe cha.y tu*` tu*` le^n do^c’ vo*i’ to^c’ ddo^. 20km/gio*` dde^? chung’ to^i co’ the^? nhin` canh? dde.p chung quanh cua? ngo.n ddeo` no^i? tie^ng’ o*? Vie^.t Nam.
Vao` luc’ qua’ gio*` Ngo., chie^c’ xe van cho*? 7 ngu*o*i` chung’ to^i ddi le^n ddu*o*.c ga^n` dde^n’ ddinh~ ddeo`, bo^ng~ nhie^n ke^u xi.ch xi.ch ro^i` tu*` tu*` ngu*ng` la.i giu*a~ ddu*o*ng`.
_Chuye^.n gi` va^.y tai` xe^’?
Anh to^i cho^m` le^n hoi?
_To^i kho^ng bie^t’ nu*a?, tu*. Nhie^n xe bi. ma^t’ lu*.c ro^i` ta(t’ may’ luo^n.
_Xe nay` ddo*i` ma^y’ va^.y?
_DDo*i` 2000 ddo’ anh
_Tro*i` o*i, to^i go.i ddie^.n thoa.i ho^m qua noi’ la` to^i muo^n’ xe mo*i’ va` to^t’ ma`, ba^y gio*` ddang o*? giu*a? ddeo` xe che^t’ nhu* va^.y lam` sao dda^y?
_Min`h dda^y? xe vao` le^` ro^i` coi no’ bi. gi`.
_Phai? va^.y ro^i` chu*’ con` cach’ nao` khac’.
Mo.i ngu*o*i` xuo^ng’ xe co^’ he^t’ su*c’ dda^y? le^n mo^.t ddoa.n mo*i’ tim` ddu*o*.c cho^? tro^ng’ dde^? dda^.u xe. Tai` xe^’ xa(n’ tay ao’ le^n, lu.c phia’ sau xe la^y’ ra thung` ddo^` nghe^`. Bo^n’ ngu*o*i` ddan` o^ng cung` xa(n’ tay ao’ le^n dde^? phu. su*a? xe, hy vo.ng se~ cha.y ddu*o*.c dde^? ra khoi? cai’ ddeo` nay` tru*o*c’ tro*i` to^i’. To^i ngo^i` mo^.t minh` tre^n xe cam? tha^y’ bi. go` bo’, lu.c trong bop’ tay cua? to^i la^y’ ra mo^.t quye^n? so^? tay vo*i’ y’ ddi.nh se~ ddi da.o ga^n` dda^y dde^? ve~ la.i canh? dde.p thie^n nhie^n cua? que^ hu*o*ng min`h. Bu*o*c’ xuo^ng’ khoi? xe to^i noi’ vo*i’ anh cua? to^i:
_Em ddi da.o chung quanh ti’, ne^u’ xe sua? xong ro^i` ma` em chu*a ve^` to*i’ thi` anh noi’ tai` xe^’ cha.y dai` tre^n dda^y se~ ga(.p em nghe.
_U*`, em nho*’ ddi ca^n~ tha^.n, coi chu*ng` xe ddo’ nghe! O*? dda^y ddu*o*ng` ddeo` nguy hie^m?, ho. lai’ xe a^u? la(m’ ddo’. DDi xich’ ra ngoai` mo^.t ti’ ddu*ng` ddi sat’ qua’ te’ xuo^ng’ ddeo`ddo’, co’ gi` thi` la lo*n’ le^n cho anh nghe. OK?
_Em bie^t’ ro^i`, anh cu*’ lam` nhu* em con` nho? la(m’ va^.y.
Noi’ xong to^i mo^.t min`h do.c theo ddu*o*ng` cat’ ddi le^n ddeo`. DDi ddu*o*.c mo^.t ddoa.n cach’ chie^c’ xe van ddo^. chu*ng` ho*n hai tra(m thu*o*c’, to^i cam? tha^y’ me^.t va` khat’ nu*o*c’, ho^i’ ha^.n vi` kho^ng mang theo mo^.t chai nu*o*c’ dde^? ba^y gio*` khat’ qua’ ma` la.i kho^ng ddi tro*? la.i xe ddu*o*.c. Nhin` le^n mo^.t ddoa.n cach’ cho^? to^i ddang ddu*ng’ kho^ng xa co’ mo^.t tang? dda’ kha’ ba(ng` pha(ng?, to^i ddi the^m vai` bu*o*c’ nu*a? la.i be^n tang? dda’ ngo^i` xuo^ng’ tho*?. Cung~ may co’ mo^.t ca^y kha’ lo*n’ ddo^? bong’ xuo^ng’ cho^? to^i ddang ngo^i` lam` di.u ddi co*n khat’ pha^n` nao`. Nhin` chung quanh du*o*i’ ddeo` ca^y co^i’ trung` ddie^.p, sa^u kho^ng tha^y’ dday’ ra^t’ nguy hie^m?, ai lo*? cha^n te’ xuo^ng’ cha(c’ kho^ng toan` tha^y, cho du` co’ tha^n` tie^n cu*u’ cung~ kho^ng thoat’ che^t’. To^i la^y’ ‘trong tui’ vai? ddeo be^n ho^ng quye^n? so^? tay ma` to^i thu*o*ng` dung` dde^? vie^t’ truye^.n va` tho*. DDang cui’ dda^u` loay hoay vie^t’, bo^ng~ to^i nghe be^n ca.nh min`h co’ tie^ng’ ngu*o*` hoi? to^i:
_Chi la` hoa. si~ a`?
To^i nhin` le^n tha^y’ co^ gai’ tuo^i? tra.c 18 dde^n’ 20, ma(.c chie^c’ ao’ la’ dai` tay va` chie^c’ qua^n` ba(ng` vai~ dden. Co^ a^y’ dde^n’ be^n ca.nh to^i tu*` luc’ nao` ma` to^i kho^ng he^` hay bie^t’, ho*i gia^.t minh` nhin` co^ gai’ to^i hoi? la.i:
_Oh, chi. kho^ng phai? la` hoa. si~, luc’ nho? chi. co’ ho.c ho.a nhu*ng net’ ve~ cua? chi. chu*a ddu? dde^? go.i la` ho.a si~ dda^u em. Em dde^n’ ho^i` nao` ma` chi. kho^ng bie^t’ va^.y? Nha` em o*? ga^n` dda^y kho^ng?
Co^ gai’ cu*o*i` ngung’ nga^y? ddi la.i cach’ to^i chu*ng` mo^.t sai? tay ro^i` ngo^i` cho^m` ho^m? ddu*a tay chi? ve^` phia’ tre^n ddo^i` noi’:
_Nha` cua? em o*? phia’ tre^n ddo’, ngay` nao` em cung~ dde^n’ dda^y ma`. Chi. ddang vie^t’ gi` va^.y? ddo.c cho em nghe ddu*o*.c kho^ng?
_A`, chi. vie^t’ truye^.n. Chi. chu*a vie^t’ ddu*o*.c bao nhie^u ca?, mo*i’ ddu*o*.c ma^y’ chu*~ chu*a ddu? dde^? nha^.p dde^`.
Co^ gai’ ra ve? ho*n’ ho*? cu*o*i` tu*o*i ddanh’ vao` ddui` mo^.t cai’ ngo^i` be^.t xuo^ng’ dda^t’ noi’ nhu* reo:
_Va^.y a`? Chi. gioi? qua’, chi. vie^t’ truye^.n gi`?
_Chi. ve^t’ truye^.n tie^u? thuye^t’, xa~ ho^.i, ba^t’ cu*’ gi` co’ dde^` tai` thi` chi. vie^t’.
_Em ke^? Cho chi. nghe mo^.t ca^u chuye^.n nay` co’ tha^.t, chi. nghe xong xem co’ dde^` tai` cho chi. vie^t’ truye^.n kho^ng nghe?
To^i ga^.t dda^u` noi’:
_DDu*o*.c, em ke^? cho chi. nghe di, ke^? cho hay ddo’ thi` chi. mo*i’ vie^t’ thanh` truye^.n ddu*o*.c.
Co^ gai’ mim’ mo^i ga^.t dda^u` ro^i` nhin` xuo^ng’ thung lung~ vo*i’ hang` ngan` loa.i ca^y co? khac’ nhau mo.c thanh` ru*ng`, vo*i’ bao nhie^u loa.i ca^m` thu’ ddang cho*` to^i’ dde^n’ dde^? ddi tim` mo^i`. Anh’ ma(t’ cua? co^ gai’ bo^ng~ nhie^n la.c tha^n` nhu* ddang ddi vao` coi~ xa vo*i`, co^ tho*? ra cha^.m rai~ ke^?…
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Vao` na(m 1980, o*? ta.i thanh` pho^’ SaiGon, co’ mo^.t ddo^i trai gai’ sinh vie^n tru*o*ng` ca^p’ ba Merycury, hai ngu*o*i` quen nhau cung~ kha’ la^u, ho. quen nhau tu*` luc’ ba(t’ dda^u` lo*p’ mu*o*i`. Mo^i~ ngay` ho. thu*o*ng` lam` bai` chung vo*i’ nhau du*o*i’ go^c’ ca^y ddie^.p trong sa^n tru*o*ng`. Chang` trai kho^ng xa^u’ cung~ kho^ng dde.p trai, gia ddin`h cung~ kho^ng giau` co’, chi? ta.m ddu?. Gia ddinh` co^ gai’ thuo^.c loa.i kha’ gia~ nhu*ng ba^y gio*` thi` cung~ ddang tre^n dda` sa sut’. Vi` con` la` sinh vie^n chu*a co’ co^ng a(n vie^.c lam` ne^n ca? hai kho^ng co’ nhie^u` tie^n`, chi? co’ tie^n` dung` sang’ ddu? mo^.t to^ chao’ vo*i’ mo^.t ly nu*o*c’ tra` tho^i. Ca? hai kho^ng he.n ma` cung` chung y’ ddi.nh la` kho^ng a(n sang’, dde^? danh` tie^n` cho nhu*ng~ buo^i? len’ gia ddinh` ddi coi film, a(n che` mo^i~ khi ddi da.o. Ho. thu*o*ng` he.n nhau o*? mo^.t no*i xa nha` ro^i` ddeo` nhau ba(ng` chie^c’ xe dda.p su*o*ng` ngang cua? ngu*o*i` thanh nie^n ddo’ ddi Thu? Ddu*c’ hay nhu*ng~ no*i nao` kho^ng co’ ngu*o*i` tha^n quen vi` ho. so*. se~ co’ ngu*o*i` tha^y’ ro^i` met’ la.i vo*i’ ba me. cua? ho..
DDa~ ga^n` 3 na(m len’ lut’ ga(.p nhau nhu*ng ho. va^n~ giu*~ dda.o nghia~, ho. chi? na(m’ tay va` trao nhau nhu*ng~ nu. ho^n le^n ma’ dde^? to? tin`h ye^u cua? nhau. Ho^m ddo’, chang` thanh nie^n dde^` nghi. vo*i’ co^ thie^u’ nu*~:
_Em a`, hay la` minh` thu*a vo*i’ ba me. cho min`h la^y’ nhau nghe em? Min`h quen nhau dda~ la^u ro^i`, anh so*. cu*’ len’ lut’ ga(.p nhau nhu* va^.y co’ ngay` se~ co’ ngu*o*i` ba(t’ ga(.p thi` minh` cang` bi. lo^i~ na(.ng ddo’.
_U*, em cung~ muo^n’ la(m’, nhung gia ddinh` anh la` dda.o Co^ng giao’ con` em la` Pha^.t giao’, so*. lo*~ hai be^n gia ddin`h kho^ng ba(ng` long` ro^i` kho^ng cho minh` ga(.p nhau nu*a~ thi` sao? Em cam? tha^y’ ha.nh phuc’ vo*i’ nhu*ng~ ngay` be^n anh, cho du` la` len’ lut’. Em kho^ng ddu? can ddam? noi’ vo*i’ ba me. vi` em so*. se~ ma^t’ anh.
_Anh cung~ kho^ng muo^n’ ma^t’ em. Tro.n ddo*i` nay` anh chi? ye^u mo^.t min`h em tho^i. Anh muo^n’ min`h co^ng khai, kho^ng muo^n’ phai? ga(.p nhau len’ lut’ nu*a~. Ne^u’ sau nay` co’ ai ba(t’ ga(.p minh` ddi vo*i’ nhau thi` min`h cung~ phai ddi vao` tin`h trang gio^n’g va^.y tho^i, tha` min`h co’ lo*i` noi’ vo*i’ ngu*o*i` lo*n’ con` ho*n sau nay` ba me. se~ ba(t’ lo^i~ minh` ro^i` the^m nhie^u` phie^n` phu*c’.
Co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ngo^i` gu.c dda^u` suy nghi~ mo^.t luc’ ro^i` nga^n~ le^n nhin` ngu*o*i` ye^u vo*i’ gio.ng diu. dang` nhu*ng kho^ng kem’ pha^n` quye^t’ ta^m.
_Va^.y cung~ ddu*o*.c, nhu*ng ne^u’ hai gia ddin`h kho^ng cha^p’ nha^.n thi` minh` phai? lam` sao?
_Luc’ ddo’ thi` min`h se~ tim` phu*o*ng cach’ khac’
Noi’ xong hai ngu*o*i` ngo^i` du*a. lu*ng vao` go^c’ ca^y, mo^i~ ngu*o*i` theo gioi? mo^.t ta^m tra.ng rie^ng, bie^t’ cha(c’ la` trong dda^u` cua? ho. luc’ ddo’ ddang nghi~ ra nhu*ng~ lo*i` dde^? noi’ vo*i’ ngu*o*i` lo*n’ trong nha`. Chie^u` ho^n ddo’, tru*o*c’ khi chia tay chang` thanh nie^n kho^ng que^n nha(c’ ngu*o*i` ye^u mo^.t la^n` nu*a~ ve^` thu*a vo*i’ ba me. chuye^.n cua? ho., co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ga^.t dda^u` va` ho. trao nhau nu. cu*o*i` lam` nie^m` tin dde^? ung? ho^. tinh tha^n` cho nhau.
Sang’ ho^m sau, ho. thu*a chuye^.n vo*i’ ba me. theo nhu*ng~ gi` dda~ du*. tinh’. Ca? hai kho^ng ngo*` su*. phan? ddo^i’ mo^.t cach’ manh~ lie^.t cua? hai gia ddinh`, ba me. cua? ho. kho^ng nhu*ng~ kho^ng ddo^ng` y’ vie^.c ddi dde^n’ ho^n nha^n cua? ddo^i tre? ma` con` nghie^m kha(c’ nga(n ca^m’ kho^ng cho ho. ga(.p nhau. Mo^i~ ngay` ddi ho.c phai? co’ ngu*o*i` ddu*a ddon’ kho^ng du*o*.c ve^` tre^?. Co’ ho^m, nho*` su*. giup’ ddo*~ cua? ngu*o*i` em gai’, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ddo’ va` chang` thanh nie^n ddu*o*.c ga(.p nhau trong 10 phut’. Tuy la` tho*i` gian nga(n’ ngui? nhu*ng con` ho*n la` kho^ng ga(.p, ho. chi? ki.p he.n nhau vao` nhu*ng~ gio*` co^ gai’ ddo’ ddi cho*. dde^? ddu*o*.c ga(.p nhau. Tin`h tra.n ga(.p nhau len’ lut’ ddo’ kho^ng bao la^u thi` co’ ngu*o*i` trong xom’ ba(t’ ga(.p ro^i` noi’ la.i vo*i’ ba me. cua? co^ gai’. Ho^m ddo’, vu*a` tu*` o*? cho*. ve^`, co^ gai’ dda~ bi. me. lo^i vao` phong` va` cho mo^.t tra^.n ddon` ne^n tha^n ro^i` con` khoa’ cha^n vao` go^c’ tu? kho^ng cho ddi ra ngoai`, cho du` ddi ho.c hay ddi cho*. cung~ bi. ca^m’ luo^n. Co^ gai’ khoc’ than tham? thie^t’ nhu*ng kho^ng lam` cho ba me. cua? co^ a^y’ thay ddo^i? y’ ddi.nh .
Ma^y’ ngay` dda~ qua, chang` thanh nie^n kho^ng nhin` tha^y’ ngu*o*` ye^u dde^n’ tru*o*ng`. Linh cam? cho bie^t’ ngu*o*i` ye^u cua? min`h dda~ ga(.p chuye^.n kho^ng hay, la^n` mo` hoi? tha(m thi` ddu*o*.c co^ em gai’ to^t’ bu.ng cua? co^ a^y’ cho bie^t’ tin`h tra.ng cua? co^ a^y’ hie^.n nhu* the^’ nao`. Chang` cung~ ddau long` cho ngu*o*i` ye^u ddang trong tinh` canh? kho^n’ kho^? nhu*ng kho^ng bie^t’ lam` sao dde^? giai? cu*u’. Suy nghi~ mo^.t luc’, chang` la^y’ gia^y’ vie^t’ cho ngu*o*i` ye^u mo^.t la’ thu* nga(n’ ro^i` nho*` co^ em ddu*a ve^` cho ngu*o*i` ye^u dum`.
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Em,
Ba ngay` sau ddung’ 10 gio*` sang’, em rang’ ra ga(.p anh o*? be^n’ xe mie^n` ddo^ng Nam Ba(c’, minh` se~ mai~ be^n nhau.
Anh.
DDo.c xong co^ gai’ vo^.i vang` xe’ nho? to*` gia^y’ nhe’t vao` ao’ go^i’ dde^? kho^ng ai phat’ hie^.n ra. Trong ba ngay` phai? tim` cach’ ro*i` khoi? nha` dde^? ddi ga(.p chang`, suy nghi~ cach’ dde^? thoat’ ra khoi? cai’ so*.i da^y xich’ vo*i’ cai’ o^? khoa’ to lo*n’no*i co^? cha^n. Cung~ may, co^ gai’ a^y’ co’ mo^.t ngu*o*i` em gai’ hie^u? ddu*o*.c ta^m su*. cua? chi., co^ em co’ y’ muo^n’ giup’ cho hai ngu*o*i` du*o*.c ga(.p nhau, hai chi. em ban` ddi.nh vo*i’ nhau lam` sao dde^? co^ gai’ ddi ra cho^? he.n ddung’ ngay` gio*`. Ban` tinh’ nhie^u` cach’ nhu*ng cung~ kho^ng tim` ddu*o*.c cach’ nao` co’ the^? dung` ddu*o*.c, cho*.t ngu*o*i` em noi’:
_Ngay` mai, sau khi me. ddi cho*., ba ddi lam`, chi? con` em vo*i’ chi. o*? nha`, luc’ ddo’ em mo*? khoa’ cho chi. ro^i` chi. ddanh’ em mo^.t cai’ tha^.t ma.nh, em lam` bo^. xiu? ro^i` chi. bo? chay ddi, khi ba me. ve^` em noi’ em mo*? khoa’ cho chi. ddi dung` nha` ca^u` ba^t’ tha^n` chi. ddanh’ em xiu? ro^i` chi. bo? ddi, ba me. se~ kho^ng la em dda^u.
_Nhu* va^.y kho^ng ddu*o*.c dda^u, lo*~ may chi. ddanh’ em ma.nh qua’ em kho^ng tinh? da^.y lam` sao? Tho^i tim` cach’ khac’ ddi.
_Em tha^y’ chi? co’ cach’ ddo’ tho^i, chi. kho^ng ca^n` ddanh’ em ma.nh dda^u, chi? ca^n` co’ da^u’ ve^t’ gi` ddo’ cho ba me. tin lo*i` cua? em thi` kho^ng nghi ngo*`.
Suy nghi~ mo^.t luc’ chi? tha^y’ ke^’ ddo’ co’ the^? dung` ddu*o*.c, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ noi’ co^ em ddu*a cho min`h gia^y’ vie^t’ ro^i` giu.c em ddi la^y’ cho min`h vai` bo^. ddo^` bo? vao` bao nho?. Vie^t’ xong, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ga^p’ to*` gia^y’ la.i lam` bo^n’ bo? vao` ao’ go^i’ da(.n em:
_Ngay` mai ddo*.i chi. ddi la^u ro^i`, em lam` bo^. lu.c tre^n giu*o*ng` chi, lam` nhu* vo^ tin`h em tim` ddu*o*.c bu*c’ thu* chi. vie^t’ cho ba me.. Nho*’ ddu*ng` la^y’ ra so*m’ qua’ nghe.
Co^ em ga^t dda^u`. Hai chi. em ngo^i` nhin` nhau vo*i’ ve? ma(.t buo^n` ra^u`, ho. bie^t’ chuye^n’ ddi nay` se~ lam` cho chi. em cua? ho. xa nhau ma` kho^ng bie^t’ dde^n’ khi nao` mo*i’ co’ the^? ga(.p la.i. Nhin` nhau mo^.t luc’ro^i` kho^ng he.n ma` cung`, hai ngu*o*i` cho^m` to*i’ o^m nhau khoc’ nu*c’ no*?, khoc’ mo^.t ho^i` co’ le~ dda~ ca.n he^t’ nu*o*c’ ma(t’ ho. mo*i’ buo^ng nhau ra, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ noi’ vo*i’ em:
_Tho^i em ddi lam` vie^.c ddi kho^ng tho^i ba me. ve^` la ddo’, nho*’ la` ddu*ng` dde^? lo^. ra cu*? chi? nao` cho ba me. nghi ngo*` nghe chu*a!
_Em bie^t’ ro^i`, chi. ddi nho*’ la^u la^u lie^n la.c cho em bie^t’ chi sinh hoa.t nhu* the^’ nao` nghe!
Co^ thie^u’ nu*~ nhin` em to? ve? buo^n` ra^u`, nhu*ng co^ quay ddi dde^? che gia^u’ su*. ddau kho^? ma` kho^ng the^? noi’ ra ddu*o*.c, ddu*a tay ao’ le^n chui` nu*o*c’ ma(t’ ro^i` noi’:
_Di~ nhie^n ro^i`, chi. se~ cho em bie^t’ chi. o*? dda^u nhu*ng ddu*ng` noi’ cho ba me. bie^t’.
Co^ em ga^.t dda^u` u*` ro^i` ddu*ng’ le^n ddi lo vie^.c nha`. Con` la.i mo^.t min`h, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ vo*i’ nhie^u` suy tinh’ trong dda^u` vu*a` lo la(ng’ la^n~ vui mu*ng`. Lo vi` so*. mai vie^.c kho^ng thanh` se~ lam` lo*~ ddi di.p dde^? cung` chung vo*i’ ngu*o*i` ye^u tro.n kie^p’ be^n nhau. Vui vi` ngay` mai se~ ddu*o*.c ga(.p la.i ngu*o*i` ye^u sau nhie^u` ngay` xa va(ng’. DDe^m ho^m ddo’, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ suy nghi~ nhie^u` ne^n ngu? kho^ng ddu*o*.c, co^ em hie^u? y’ noi’ nho?
_Ngu? ddi kho^ng tho^i mai kho^ng co’ su*c’ dde^? ddi ddo’.
_U*`, tho^i dde^? chi. thu*? do^~ gia^c’ ngu? xem ngu? ddu*o*.c kho^ng.
Na(m` im trong bong’ to^i’ nhin` le^n tra^n` nha` mo^.t luc’, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ cung~ tu*` tu*` ddi vao` gia^c’ ngu?.
Sang’ ho^m sau khi ba me. dda~ ra khoi? nha` ddu*o*.c 15 phut’. Hai chi. em la^.p tu*c’ theo ke^’ hoa.ch ma` thu*.c hanh`. DDung’ 10 gio*` sang’, co^ thie^u’ nu*~ dda~ co’ ma(.t o*? be^n’ xe nhu* dda~ he.n, ddang nhin` quanh dde^? tim` ngu*o*i` ye^u thi` chang` thanh nie^n dda~ ddi la.i tu*` sau lu*ng cua? co^ thie^u’ nu*~ va` o^m cha^m` la^y’ co^ noi’ nhu* reo:
_Ga(.p ddu*o*.c em anh mu*ng` qua’, anh mua hai cai’ ve’ cho hai ddu*a’ minh` ro^i`, ddo*.i dde^n’ gio*` thi` le^n xe mi`nh ddi nghe em, nho*’ ddu*ng` dde^? ai tha^y’ minh` kho^ng tho^i thi` ma^t’ he^t’ co* ho^.i ddo’.
_Em bie^t’, minh` tim` xe cua? min`h ddi ro^i` tro^n’ o*? giu*a? hai chie^c’ xe thi` kho^ng ai tha^y’ min`h dda^u.
Hai ngu*o*i` na(m’ tay nhau ddi tim` cho^? nup’ dde^? tranh’ anh’ ma(t’ cua? ngu*o*i` qua la.i vi` so*. ga(.p phai? ngu*o*i` quen.
DDung’ 10 gio*` 30, chie^c’ xe cho*? ca(.p thin`h nha^n la(n banh’ ro*i` khoi? be^n’ xe, khi xe cha.y ra dde^n’ xa lo^. ma` kho^ng tha^y’ ai cha.y theo, hai ngu*o*i` nhin` nhau tho*? phao` nhe. nhom?.
Ma^y’ ngay` sau, qua nhu*ng~ gia(ng` xo^c’ cua? chuye^n’ ddi vi` ddu*o*ng` xa’ kho’ kha(n, chie^c’ xe cho*? khach’ cung~ ddi dde^n’ ddu*o*.c ddeo` Hai~ Va^n. Chie^c’ xe cho*~ na(.ng qua’ tai? ne^n phai? le^ tu*` tu*` mo*i’ le^n ddu*o*.c dde^n’ ddinh? ddeo`. Ca(.p tin`h nha^n nhin` nhau ra hie^.u ro^i` co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ddo^.t nhie^n o^m bu.ng la khoc’ than ddau va` muo^n’ ddu*o*.c xuo^ng’ khoi? xe dde^? ddi “giai? quye^t’ “. Ga~ tai` xe^’ vo*i’ tuo^i? ngu~ tua^n` ma(.t kho’ u*a chu*i? rua? mo^.t lat’ ro^i` cung~ phai? ta.m du*ng` xe cho co^ thie^u’ nu*~ xuo^ng’.
Co^ thie^u’ nu*~ lam` bo^. o^m bu.ng re^n ri? bu*o*c’ xuo^ng’ xe ngo’ quanh tim` cho^?, ddo^.t nhie^n co^ a^y’ nhin` le^n xe ga^.t dda^u` ra hie^.u cho chang` thanh nie^n cung` xuo^ng’ xe dde^n’ be^n ca.nh co^. Hai ngu*o*i` nhin` nhau ro^i` ddi xuo^ng’ do^c’ vu*a` khua^t’ dde^? kho^ng ai nhin` tha^y’.
Noi’ dde^n’ dda^y co^ gai’ ddu*a tay chi? ve^` phia’ tre^n ddeo` noi’:
_DDo’, chi. tha^y’ cai’ lo^? ho^ng? lo*n’ ddo’ kho^ng? tu*` dda^y mi`nh nhin` thay’ nhu*ng ddi le^n kia thi` khong thay’ ddu*o*.c.
To^i nhin` theo tay chi? cua? co^ gai’ a^.m u*` dde^? to? ra to^i cung~ dda~ tha^y’ cai’ hang ddo’ ro^i` du.c co^ gai’ ke^? tie^p’. Co^ gai’ tho*? ra va` co’ ve? tra^m` tu* noi’ tie^p’:
Hai ngu*o*i` ddo’ ddi xuo^ng’ du*o*i’, ngu*o*i` thanh nie^n o^m co^ thie^u’ nu*~ noi’:
_Em co’ so*. kho^ng?
_Em kho^ng so*., minh` dda~ cho*` ddo*.i gia^y phut’ nay` dda~ la^u ro^i`. Ba me. kho^ng cho phep’ min`h co^ng khai thi` buo^.c long` min`h phai? nhu* va^.y tho^i.
Cui’ xuo^ng’ gia^u’ ve~ e the.n co^ thie^u’ nu*~ noi’ tie^p’:
_Cho du` chi? ddu*o*.c mo^.t la^n` trao go*i? cho anh em cung~ tha^y’ thoa? man~ ro^i`
Chang` thanh nie^n o^m co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ddo’ cha(.t ho*n ro^i` ho^n le^n mo^i co^ a^y’, hai ngu*o*i` ho. khoa? tha^n va` vui su*o*ng’ trao cho nhau ta^t’ ca? nie^m` tin va` tin`h ye^u. Mo^.t luc’ sau ho. ma(.c ao’ qua^n` ro^i` ddu*ng’ le^n nhin` nhau dda(m’ dduo^i’ mo^.t la^n` cuo^i’, chang` thanh nie^n hoi? co^ thie^u’ nu*~ mo^.t la^n` nu*a~:
_Em so*. kho^ng?
_DDu*o*.c che^t’ be^n anh em kho^ng so*., em chi? so*. khi che^t’ ddi minh` se~ con` ga(.p nhau nu*a~ kho^ng?
_Min`h nha^t’ ddi.nh ga(.p nhau. Minh` o^m nhau che^t’ chung nhu* va^.y thi` se~ ga(.p nhau ma`.
Co^ thie^u’ nu*~ ga^.t dda^u`.
_U*`, minh` se~ ga(.p la.i nhau va` se~ be^n nhau mai~ mai~, kho^ng con` ai chia cach’ minh` nu*a~ phai? kho^ng anh?
_Phai?, kho^ng con` ai chia cach’ minh` nu*a~.
Noi’ xong hai ngu*o*i` o^m nhau lao minh` xuo^ng’ vu*.c tha(m?. Noi’ dde^n’ dda^y co^ gai’ ngo^i` gu.c dda^u` nhu* muo^n’ khoc’. To^i vu.t mie^.ng hoi?:
_Ca^u truye^.n em ke^? nghe xuc’ cam? la(m’, to^.i nghie^.p nhu*ng~ ngu*o*i` ye^u nhau ma` kho^ng ddu*o*.c so^ng’ be^n nhau ma` phai? cho.n con ddu*o*ng` ddo’ cho tro.n tin`h vo*i’ ngu*o*i` ye^u.
To^i tho*? ra nhu* dde^? chia xe? no^i? ddau kho^? cua? hai linh ho^n` ba.c phu*o*c’. Cho*.t nghi~ ra co’ gi` ddo’ ky` la. no*i co^ gai’, to^i quay la.i hoi?:
_Nhin` em chi. ddoan’ chu*ng` 18 tuo^i? tho^i, chuye^.n ddo’ em noi’ la` co’ tha^.t nhu*ng dda~ xa^y? ra 22 na(m ro^i`, sao em bie^t’ ro~ tu*ng` chi tie^c’ va^.y?
Co^ gai’ ddu*ng’ le^n tra? lo*i` to^i:
_Ta.i vi` em la`…
Co^ gai’ vu*a` noi’ dde^n’ ddo’ thi` chie^c’ xe van dda~ dde^n’ be^n ca.nh, anh to^i mo*? cu*a? du.c to^i le^n xe, to^i qua sang ddi.nh hoi? co^ gai’ muo^n’ ddi dda^u, ne^u’ ddi cung` ddu*o*ng` thi` cho qua’ gian. To^i gia^.t minh` la le^n mo^.t tie^ng’ khie^n’ mo.i ngu*o*i` trong xe phai? he^t’ ho^n`, anh to^i cha.y dde^n’ ddo*~ tay to^i hoi?
_Gi` va^.y em? Chuye^.n gi` lam` em so*. du*~ va^.y? Ho^i` nay? Anh tha^y’ em noi’ chuye^.n ma` em noi’ vo*i’ ai va^.y?
To^i la^p’ ba^p’ kho^ng ra lo*i`, ma(.t tai’ xanh nhu* kho^ng con` chut’ mau’, to^i so*. run dde^n’ ddo^i? muo^n’ xiu?. Mo.i ngu*o*i` tha^y’ to^i nhu* va^.y lo la(ng’ du.c anh to^i a(m? to^i le^n xe, ngu*o*i` thi` ca.o gio’, ngu*o*i` qua.t cho to^i. Anh to^i la^y’ bin`h nu*o*c’ suo^i’ rot’ tu*ng` gio.t vao` mie^ng to^i noi’:
_Chac’ngo^i` nay? gio*` o*? ddo’ bi. trung’ gio’ ro^i`.
Mo.i ngu*o*i` cung~ ddo^ng` y’ vo*i’ anh to^i. Ho. ca.o gio’ cho to^i ma` tu*o*ng? nhu* ho. ddang lo^.t tu*ng` mie^ng’ da tre^n lu*ng to^i, khie^n’ ca? ngu*o*i` to^i ddau nhu*c’ lam` cho mo.i so*. hai~ cung~ tan ddi theo su*. ddau nhu*c’ ddo’. To^i phai? vung` va^y? tha^.t ma.nh mo*i’ thoat’ khoi? vong` tay cua? ho. Tha^y’ to^i dda~ tro*? la.i tra.ng thai’ bin`h thu*o*ng` mo.i ngu*o*i` tho*? ra nhe. nhom?, anh to^i hoi?
_Em tha^y’ khoe? chu*a? Ho^i` nay? em bi. trung’ gio’ ha? Tha^y’ ma(.t may` em tai’ met’ lam` mo.i ngu*o*i` he^t’ ho^n` luo^n ddo’, la^n` sau ddu*ng` ddi mo^.t min`h nhu* va^.y nu*a~ nghe.
To^i la(c’ dda^u` tu*` tu*` ke^? la.i cho mo.i ngu*o*i` nghe chuye^.n to^i dda~ ga(.p co^ gai’ la. va` ca^u chuye^.n co^ a^y’ ke^? cho to^i nghe, nghe xong mo.i ngu*o*i` noi’ to^i dda~ ga(.p ma va` cha(c’ co^ a^y’ muo^n’ to^i tha(p’ nhan va` ca^u` nguye^.n cho co^ a^y’. Chu’ tai` xe^’ lu.c trong ho.c xe la^y’ ra bo’ nhan dda~ dung` ga^n` he^t’, to^i la^y’ ra ba ca^y ro^i` ddi bo^. le^n dde^n’ khuc’ cao theo co^ gai’ ho^i` nay? chi? cho to^i xem trong luc’ ke^? chuye^.n cho to^i nghe, mo.i ngu*o*i` cung` keo’ nhau ddi theo sau lu*ng to^i. Dde^n’ ddoa.n ma` to^i ddoan’ chu*ng` la` no*i hai ngu*o*i` dda~ o^m nhau nhay? xuo^ng’, to^i du*ng` la.i dde^? ddo^t’ ba ca^y nhan le^n ro^i` qua.t cho ta(t’ ngo.n. To^i ca^m` nhan kha^n’ vai’ vai` la^n` ro^i` ca^m’ xuo^ng’ dda^t’ ngay sat’ mep’ ddeo`. Lam` xong nhu*ng~ vie^.c linh thie^ng ddo’, mo.i ngu*o*i` keo’ nhau ddi tro*? ve^` chie^c’ xe van ddang dda^.u giu*a~ ddu*o*ng`, tru*o*c’ khi bu*o*c’ le^n xe to^i tha^y’ co^ gai’ a^y’ ddu*ng’ ngay du*o*i’ go^c’ ca^y no*i to^i ngo^i` luc’ nay? nhin` to^i mim? cu*o*i` nhu* tha^m` cam’ o*n to^i dda~ tha(p’ nhan ca^u` nguye^.n cho nang` va` ngu*o*i` ye^u. Tai` xe^’ cho xe la(n banh’, to^i ngoai’ la.i nhin`. Tu*` phia’ sau cu*a? kinh’ cua? xe, co^ gai’ ddang ddu*a tay va^y~ chao` to^i ro^i` bie^n’ ma^t’ phia’ sau tha^n ca^y. To^i quay la.i, ngo^i` xuo^ng’tho*? ra nuo^i’ tie^c’ cho mo^.t cuo^.c tinh` son tre?, vi` cha me. kho^ng cam? tho^ng va` hie^u? bie^t’ ve^` tin`h ye^u cua? tuo^i? tre? dde^? phai? ddi dde^n’ ke^t’ qua? nhu* va^.y. To^i cho ghe^’ du*.a ra sau ro^i` nga~ lu*ng nha(m’ ma(t’ la.i ddi vao` gia^c’ ngu?….
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