CHO TRO.N MO^.T CUO^.C TINH`

Hạt Nắng Thùy Trang

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cùng tác giả

Vao` khoang? 4, 5 gio*` chie^u` SaiGon thu*o*ng` ddo^ng nghe.t ngu*o*i` qua la.i tre^n via~ he` cung~ nhu* du*o*i’ long` ddu*o*ng` xe ddi, mo^i~ ngay` gio*` nay` la` gio*` cao ddie^m?, ke? buo^n ngu*o*i` ban’, co^ng nha^n tan so*? tro*? ve^` nha`. Du*o*i’ cai’ nong’ cua? ma(.t tro*i` ddang tan` va` khoi’ xa(ng hoa` la^n~ vo*i’ bu.i ddu*o*ng` ta.o ne^n cam? giac’ kho’ chi.u, mo.i ngu*o*i` ddang chen chuc’ nhau tre^n ddu*o*ng` chi? mong ro*i` khoi? khu ddo^ng dduc’ nay` cang` nhanh cang` to^t’. Tro*i` ddang na(ng’ bo^ng~ nhie^n tu*` dda^u keo’ dde^n’ cu.m ma^y dden lam` cho ca? thanh` pho^’ trong phut’ cho^c’ dda~ tro*? ne^n sa^u` tham?, tu*` tre^n tro*i` ddo^? xuo^ng’tra^.n mu*a ba^t’ cho*.t lam` cho mo.i ngu*o*i` tua? ra cha.y ddi tim` cho^? tru’ mu*a, to^i cung~ vo^.i va~ dda^y? chie^c’ honda vao` na^p’ du*o*i’ mai’ hie^n cua? mo^.t quan’ bar ha.ng trung binh` tre^n ddu*o*ng` Vo~ Tanh’. Nhin` ba^u` tro*i` to^i ddoan’ chu*ng` tra^.n mu*a nay` dai lam’, it’ nha^t’ cung~ keo’ dai` ddo^. the^m nu*a? tie^ng’ nu*a~mo*i’ du*t’, to^i cho xe vao` bai~ dda^.u go*i? xe ro^i` ddi vao` quan’ bar ddi.nh ngo^i` uo^ng’ mo^.t chai 33 trong luc’ ddo*.i tro*i` ta.nh mu*a ro^i` mo*i’ tie^p’ tu.c lai’ xe ve^` nha`. Vu*a` mo*? cu*a? bu*o*c’ vao` to^i dda~ tha^y’ Kie^.m ngo^i` thu*` no*i quay` ru*o*.u mo^.t minh` dda^u` toc’ bu` xu`, tru*o*c’ ma(.t cua? ha(n’ cai’ ddia~ ga.t tan` thuo^c’ dda~ dda^y` nhoc’ tan` va` duo^i thuo^c’, hai ngon’ tay cua? ha(n’ khoi’ thuo^c’ bam’ vang` ddang ddo^i? sang mau` na^u. Kie^.m kho^ng tha^y’ to^i ddi dde^n’ ga^n`, ma(t’ ha(n’ lim dim nhin` ve^` mo^.t coi~ xa vo*i` va` tay va^n~ ddu*a ddie^u’ thuo^c’ le^n mie^.ng hit’ dde^u` tu*ng` ho*i ro^i` tha? khoi’ mo^.t cach’ ho*` hu*ng~. To^i bu*o*c’ la.i keo’ chie^c’ ghe^’ ga^n` Kie^.m ro^i` tu*. min`h ngo^i` xuo^ng’ kho^ng ddo*.i Kie^.m mo*i`, to^i le^n tie^ng’ chao`Kie^.m:
_Da.o nay` khoe? kho^ng? la^u qua’mo*i’ ga(.p la.i tro^ng o^ng khac’ ha(n? luc’ tru*o*c’.
Kie^.m va^n~ hut’ thuo^c’ tha? tu*ng` ngu.m khoi’ tra(ng’ im la(.ng kho^ng tra? lo*i`, tha^y’ cu*? chi? ddo’ cua? Kie^.m khie^n’ to^i cam? tha^y’ cho^.t da. nhu*ng cung~ kie^n nha^n~ vi` muo^n’ tim` hie^u? chuye^.n gi` xa^y? ra cho ngu*o*i` ba.n tha^n cua? to^i. Go.i mo^.t chai beer ddu*a le^n mie^.ng tu mo^.t ho*p’, quay sang nhin` xem thai’ ddo^. cua? Kie^.m nhu* the’ nao`, luc’ nay` Kie^.m du.i ddie^u’ thuo^c’ trong cai’ ddia~ ddu*.ng tan` dda~ dda^y` kho^ng con` cho^? dde^? chu*a’, tha? khoi’ thuo^c’ cuo^i’ cung` trong mie^ng Kie^.m cha^.m rai~ noi’ vo*i’ to^i tu*ng` chu*~ mo^.t:
_Phu*o*.ng dda~ ddi ro^i`
Noi’ ddu*o*.c ma^y’ chu*~ ddo’ Kie^.m la.i ca^m` bao thuo^c’lo^i ra mo^.t ddie^u’ nu*a? ddu*a le^n mo^i nga^.m ba^.t que.t lu*a? mo^i` thuo^c’, Kie^.m hit’ mo^.t ho*i tha^.t dai` ro^i` tho*? ra tu*ng` cu.m khoi’ hinh` tron` nhin` theo khoi’ thuo^c’ tan da^n` tru*o*c’ ma(t’. Nhi`n net’ ma(.t tra^m` nga^m cua? Kie^.m, to^i im la(.ng kie^n nha^n~ cho*` ddo*.i, Kie^.m hit’ the^m mo^.t ho*i thuo^c’ nu*a~ tha? khoi’ hoi? to^i:
_Sao o^ng kho^ng hoi? to^i ta.i sao Phu*o*.ng ddi va` ddi nhu* the^’ nao`?
_Chuye^.n gi` dda~ xa^y? ra? Phu*o*.ng ddi dda^u va` ddi bao la^u ro^i`? Sao o^ng kho^ng ddi tim` Phu*o*.ng?
Kie^.m gu.c dda^u` ca(n’ cha(.t hai ham` ra(ng nhu* co^’ nen’ su*. ddau xot’ trong long` ma` chang` kho^ng muo^n’ no’ bo.c phat’, ga^.t dda^u` ma^y’ cai’ Kie^.m noi’:
_Phu*o*.ng ddi ho*n mo^.t tua^n` ro^i`,
Kie^.m dda(m dda(m nhin` chie^c’ lo. kho^ng ba(ng` mica, ngoai` co’ nhan? hie^.u cho bie^t’ la` hu? thuo^c’ ngu? chu*a’ 50 vie^n ma` chang` mang theo minh` dda~ ho*n mo^.t tua^n`nay . Kie^.m la(n chie^c’ lo. ve^` phia’ to^i ha^t’ ma(.t noi’:
_Phu*o*.ng dda~ dung` no’ ra ddi dde^? tru*ng` pha.t to^i.
To^i ca^m` lo. thuo^c’ kho^ng mo* ho^` nhin` Kie^.m hoi?:
_Phu*o*.ng dda~ tu*. tu*? a`?
Kie^.m ddanh ma(.t la.i ga^.t dda^u`
_U*`, Phu*o*.ng uo^ng’ he^t’ lo. thuo^c’ ddo’
To^i muo^n’ ba^.t khoc’ thanh` tie^ng’ vo*i’ ca^u noi’ cuo^i’ cung` cua? Kie^.m, nhu* mo^.t tie^ng’ set’ ddanh’ lam` cho tim to^i vo*~ nat’ tu*ng` manh~. Ca^m` lo. thuo^c’ trong tay to^i nhin` xu*ng~ ma^t’ ho^n`, to^i muo^n’ hoi? Kie^.m the^m ve^` chuye^.n nay` nhu*ng kho^ng bie^t’ vi` sao lo*i` kho^ng ra khoi? mie^.ng cua? to^i ne^n ddanh` ngo^i` im. Kho^ng ddo*.i to^i le^n tie^ng’ hoi?, Kie^.m dda~ tu*. minh` ke^? la.i cho to^i nghe. Kie^.m nhin` ddie^u’ thuo^c’ ddang chay’ do*~ tren tay hoi? to^i:
_O^ng con` thu*o*ng Phu*o*.ng la(m’ phai? kho^ng?
To^i lung’ tung’ vo*i’ ca^u hoi? ba^t’ ngo*` cua? Kie^.m, chu*a bie^t’ phai? tra? lo*i` sao thi` Kie^.m noi’ tie^p’:
_O^ng kho^ng ca^n` phai? gia^u’, to^i bie^t’ o^ng va^n~ con` ye^u Phu*o*ng, ne^u’ kho^ng ba^y gio*` o^ng dda~ co’ gia ddin`h ro^i`.
Noi’ dde^n’ dda^y Kie^.m nhu* muo^n’ khoc’, trong long` to^i cung~ thay’ su*. ddau ddo*n’ cha(c’ cung~ kho^ng kem’ gi` Kie^.m. To^i ddi.nh bu*o*c’ ddi ra khoi? quan’ nhu*ng Kie^.m giu*? to^i la.i, Kie^.m tho*? ra mo^.t ho*i tha^.t ma.nh bao? to^i:
_O^ng co’ bie^t’ la` to^i ye^u Phu*o*.ng la(m’ kho^ng?
_Ne^u’ o^ng ye^u Phu*o*.ng thi` sao la.i dde^? cho Phu*o*.ng phai? che^t’ vi` o^ng?
_Vi` to^i ghen vo*i’ o^ng. Mo^i~ khi o^ng dde^n’ nha` cho*i to^i tha^.t su*. kho’ chi.u va` ddau trong long` vi` to^i bie^t’ o^ng ye^u Phu*o*.ng ma` to^i kho^ng noi’ ra lo*i` ddu*o*.c. Nhie^u` khi to^i phai? mie^n~ cu*o*ng? tie^p’ ddai~ o^ng vi` to^i kho^ng muo^n’ cho o^ng va` Phu*o*.ng tha^y’ su*. ghen tu*o*ng trong long` to^i. Tu*` no^i~ ddau ddo’ ma` to^i dda~ nghi~ cach’ tra? thu` Phu*o*.ng, to^i muo^n’ nang` cung~ cam? ddu*o*.c cai’ ddau cua? to^i khi nhin` tha^y’ ngu*o*i` min`h ye^u vui ve~ be^n ngu*o*i` khac’.
_O^ng ddung’ la` ddo^` ddie^n, Phu*o*.ng hoan` toan` kho^ng bie^t’ to^i ye^u Phu*o*.ng, chi? co’ to^i va` o^ng bie^t’ tho^i, sao o^ng la.i ddo^i’ xu*? vo*i’ Phu*o*.ng nhu* va^.y? O^ng co’ the^? noi’ vo*i’ to^i no^i~ lo a^u va` su*. kho’ chi.u cua? o^ng, min`h co’ the^? giai? quye^t’ ba(ng` cach’ khac’. To^i kho^ng ngo*` o^ng tha^.t la` ich’ ky~ va` ddo^.c ac’.
Nhin` to^i mo^.t luc’ nhu* dde^? suy ddoan’ ddie^u` gi`,Kie^.m voi’ tay la^y’ quye^n? sach’ be^n goc’ quay` ru*o*.u ddu*a cho to^i ro^i` noi’:
_Phu*o*.ng ra ddi dde^? la.i hai mon’ va^.t, mo^.t la` lo. thuo^c’ ngu? tro^ng’ kho^ng, hai la` quye^n? nha^.t ky’ nay` cua? nang`, o^ng ddo.c ddi.
To^i ngo*` ngo*. nhin` Kie^.m nhu* muo^n’ hoi? trong ddo’ Phu*o*.ng vie^t’ nhu*ng~ gi`. Kie^.m hit’ mo^.t ho*i tho^c’ nu*a~, ngu*a~ ma(.t le^n tra^n`` tho*? khoi’ ha^t’ tay ra hie^.u bao? to^i mo*? ra ddo.c, to^i lam` theo lo*i` Kie^.m la^.t nhe. bia`sach’, ddo.c dong` chu*~ quen thuo^.c cua? Phu*o*.ng no*i trang dda^u`.”NHA^.T KY’ DDO*I` TO^I”. To^i ho^i `ho^.p, tim dda^.p ma.nh, ga^p’ bia` sach’ la.i nhin` Kie^.m hoi?
_Nha^.t ky’ cua? Phu*o*.ng sao o^ng ddu*a cho to^i ddo.c?
_Vi` trong ddo’ Phu*o*.ng co’ nha(c’ dde^n’ o^ng
Nghe Kie^.m noi’ to^i cam? tha^y’ he^t’ su*c’ nga.c nhie^n va` xuc’ ddo^.ng mo*? nhanh quye^n? nha^.t ky’ ra la^n` nu*a~, to^i ddo.c lu*o*t’ qua nhu*ng~ ddoa.n Phu*o*.ng vie^t’ ve^` no^i~ ddau cua? nang` ro^i` tim` nhu*ng~ ddoa.n ma` Phu*o*.ng vie^t’ ve^ to^i, trong luc’ nay` ba^t’ cu*’ lo*i` nao` cua? Phu*o*.ng ddo^i’ vo*i’ to^i nhu* la` lie^u` thuo^c’ bo^? giup’ cho to^i the^m pha^n` nghi. lu*.c.
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Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_Kho^ng hie^u? vi` sao nhu*ng~ luc’ sau nay` Kie^.m to? ve? la.nh lung` vo*i’ to^i, anh a^y’ cung~ kho^ng ve^` nha` dung` co*m. To^i lo qua’….
Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_Hai dde^m ro^i` anh a^y’ kho^ng ve^` nha` ngu?, mo^.t min`h to^i cha(n ddo*n go^i’ chie^c’… Kie^.m o*i! Anh o*? dda^u? Kho^ng co’ anh be^n em, em cam? tha^y’ co^ ddo*n tro^ng’ trai? la(m’ anh bie^t’ kho^ng?
Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_Mo^.t thang’ tro^i qua, Kie^.m va^n~ la.nh lung` va` bo? to^i mo^.t min`h trong ca(n nha` qua.nh que? nay`. To^i kho^ng bie^t’ min`h dda~ lam` lo^i~ gi` dde^? cho chang` thay ddo^i? cach’ cu* xu*? vo*i’ to^i? Kho^ng, kho^ng dda^u, to^i dda^u co’ lam` gi` sai trai’ ddo^i’ vo*i’ chang`…
Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_Huy dde^n’ cho*i nhu*ng Kie^.m kho^ng co’ o*? nha`, Huy nha^.n lo*i` mo*i` o*? la.i dung` bu*a~ co*m tru*a vo*i’ to^i cho bu*a~ a(n bo*t’ co^ qua.nh. Sau buo^i? a(n tru*a, Huy va` to^i kho^ng ai bao? ai, ca? hai nhu* ddo.c ddu*o*.c ta^m y’ nhau, mo^i~ ngu*o*i` nha(t’ mo^.t chie^c’ ghe^t’ ra hang` hie^n ngo^i` noi’ chuye^.n dde^? tranh’ su*. hie^u? la^m` va` lo*i` di. nghi. vi` to^i la` gai’ dda~ co’ cho^ng` con` Huy la` trai chu*a vo*.. Trong luc’ tro` chuye^.n vui ve~ lam` cho to^i ta.m tho*i` que^n di no^i~ buo^n` ddau trong long`, Huy kho^ng he^` hay bie^t’ dda~ ho*n thang’ nay Kie^.m kho^ng ve^` nha` va` dda~ thay ddo^i? cach’ ddo^i’ xu*? cua? chang` ddo^i’ vo*i’ to^i, tha^y’ Huy va^n~ vui cu*o*i` nhu* ngay` nao` ba chung’ to^i con` la` ba.n tha^n vo*i’ nhau. Vao` tho*i` gian ddo’ Kie^.m thi` co’ net’ phong tra^n`, Huy thi` co’ nu. cu*o*i` luc’ nao` cung~ tu*o*i nhu* kho^ng co’ chuyen gi` co’ the^? lam` cho Huy ma^t’ ddi nu. cu*o*i` ddo’, con` to^i vo*i’ tie^ng’ cu*o*i` trong treo? ho^n` nhie^n, nho*` ddo’ ma` ba chung’ to^i dda~ thanh` ba.n tha^n kha(n’ khit’ be^n nhau nhu* kho^ng the^? thie^u’ nhau. To^i to? ve? nga.c nhie^n hoi? Huy sao dde^n’ ba^y gio*` Huy va^n~ chu*a cu*o*i’ vo*., Huy cu*o*i` bao? to^i trai’ tim cua? chang` dda~ bi. mo^.t ngu*o*i` chie^m’ giu*~ ne^n kho^ng the^? ye^u ngu*o*i` nao` khac’ ddu*o*.c. To^i vo^ tin`h hoi? la.i Huy ngu*o*i` ddo’ la` ai ma` co’ the^? lam` cho chang` phai? bo? phi’ ddi tuo^i? thanh xua^n va` ca? mo^.t ddo*i` ngu*o*i`? Huy ba^ng quo* noi’ vo*i’ to^i Huy dda~ cho ngu*o*i` ddo’ no*. mo^i’ tin`h cua? Huy o*? kie^p’ nay`, kie^p’ sau Huy se~ tim` ngu*o*i` ddo’ dde^? ddoi` la.i ca? tin`h ye^u cua? kie^p’ hie^.n ta.i la^n~ kie^p’ tru*o*c’, to^i va` Huy ddo^ng` pha’ le^n cu*o*i` tha^.t vui ve~. DDa~ la^u ro^i` to^i chu*a ddu*o*.c vui nhu* ho^m nay….
Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_Kie^.m ve^` nha` ho*i khuya mo^.t ti’ nhu*ng cung~ ddu? lam` cho to^i vui la(m’, to^i chua^n? bi. ao’ qua^n` ngu? cho chang`. Co’ nhie^u` vie^.c to^i muo^n’ noi’ vo*i’ chang` nhu*ng tha^y’ chang` to? ra me^.t moi? xoay lu*ng la.i vo*i’ to^i ro^i` ddi vao` gia^c’ ngu?. Na(m` be^n ca.nh chang` ma` to^i tu*o*ng? nhu* minh` la` mo^.t phi ta^n` bi. vua nho^t’ vao` lanh~ cung, to^i tha^y’ tui? tha^n cho minh` ma` kho^ng dam’ le^n tie^ng’ noi’ mo^.t lo*i` so*. lam` cho Kie^.m gia^.n ro^i` chan’ to^I, to^i tho*? dai` nha(m’ ma(t’ ddi.nh ru minh` vao` gia^c’ ngu?. Bo^ng~ to^i nghe Kie^.m goi te^n ngu*o*i` con gai’ khac’,”Ta^m Nhu*”. Tro*i` oi! Hai chu*~ Ta^m Nhu* ddo’ nghe di.u dang` va` de^~ thu*o*ng qua’, nhu*ng sao to^i nghe nhu* mui~ dao nho.n dda^m vao` tim lam` to^i ddau buo^t’, to^i o^m ngu*.c qua(n` qua.i vo*i’ ve^t’ thu*o*ng trong to^i. Kie^.m o*i, anh co’ bie^t’ tim em ddang ri? mau’ vo*i’ gia^c’ mo* cua? anh kho^ng?…
Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_DDa~ nhie^u` ngay` to^i ma^t’ a(n, ma^t’ ngu?, Kie^.m kho^ng quan tam^ dde^n’ su*c’ khoe? cung~ nhu* su*. sinh hoa.t mo^i~ ngay` cua? to^i. Sang’ nay soi gu*o*ng to^i tha^y’ minh` khac’ ha(n? ddi, net’ tu*o*i vui va` duye^n dang’ ngay` nao` dda~ kho^ng con` nu*a~, thay vao` ddo’ la` su*. ca(n` co^i~ va` me^.t moi? chan’ chu*o*ng`. Luc’ nay` to^i tro^ng ddo*.i Huy dde^n’ ho*n luc’ nao` he^t’, chi? co’ Huy mo*i’ ddem cho to^i nhu*ng~ nu. cu*o*i` lam` ta(ng su*c’ so^ng’ cho tinh tha^n` cua? to^i…Tro*i` o*i, ca(n nha` im la(.ng dde^n’ la.nh lung` va` tro^ng’ trai? qua’. Kie^.m o*i, Huy o*i, hai ngu*o*i` o*? dda^u, sao kho^ng ai nghe ddu*o*.c tie^ng’ cua? em ke^u va^.y? em so*. la(m’, so*. su*. im la(.ng tan` nha^n~ qua’…
Ngay`…thang’…na(m…
_To^i nghe lo*i` Hoa ddi da.o mo^.t vong` thanh` pho^’ cho khua^y khoa?. Ngo^i` sau lu*ng Hoa ma` dda^u` oc’ to^i va^n~ na(.ng nhu* ddeo dda’, Hoa noi’ chuye^.n to^i cung~ chi? a^.m u*` cho qua chu*’ cung~ cha(ng? hie^u? ddu*o*.c Hoa ddang noi’ gi`. Ngu*o*i` qua la.i tre^n ddu*o*ng` ddo^ng ddu’c o^n` ao` ma` to^i co’ nghe ddu*o*.c tie^ng’ gi` dda^u. Hoa dda^.u xe ngay tru*o*c’ cu*a? cua? mo^.t quan’ bar cho*` dden` xanh, to^i bo^ng~ gia^.t minh` tim ddau nhoi’ muo^n’ nga~ xuo^ng’ khoi? xe khi tro^ng tha^y’ Kie^.m tu*` be^n trong bu*o*c’ ra, tay quan` ho^ng mo^.t co^ gai’ tuo^i? ddo^. 23,24. Kie^m tro^ng tha^y’ to^i va` Hoa, chang` chi? ddu*ng’ la.i nhin` nhu*ng tre^n net’ ma(.t cua? chang` va^n~ la.nh lung` nhu* kho^ng bie^t’ to^i la` ai. To^i nghe tie^ng’ xet’ ddanh’ ngang tai va` hin`h nhu* ca? vu~ tru. ddang su.p ddo^?, tru*o*c’ ma(.t to^i to^i’ xa^m` kho^ng con` nha^.n thu*c’ ddu*o*.c gi` nu*a~. Hoa cho*? to^i ve^` nha` va` to^i la.i mo^.t min`h co^ ddo*n trong ca(n nha` tro^ng’ va(ng’….
Chie^u` cung` ngay`
_Co’ le~ dda^y la` nhu*ng~ dong` nha^.t ky’ cuo^i’ cung` cua? ddo*i` to^i, cuo^.c ddo*i` cua? mo^.t ngu*o*i` co^ ddo*n ba.c phu*o*c’. Kie^.m o*i! Em ye^u anh nhu*ng kho^ng bie^t’ lam` sao dde^? giu*? tin`h ye^u cua? anh be^n em. Co’ luc’ nao` anh cam? tha^y’ tha^.t su*. ye^u em kho^ng Kie^.m? Rie^ng em, em va^n~ mai~ ye^u anh. Em kho^ng con` tim` ddu*o*.c con ddu*o*ng` nao` khac’ dde^? giai? quye^t’ no^i~ ddau trong tim em, em ra ddi dde^? giu*~ mai~ tin`h anh va` ca^u` mong anh ddu*o*.c ha.nh phuc’.
_Vai` hang` cho Huy.
Em cam’ o*n nhu*ng~ nu. cu*o*i` va` tin`h ye^u cua? Huy cho em, kie^p’ nay` min`h kho^ng duye^n no*., xin he.n o*? kie^p’ sau. Em chi? mong sau khi em ra ddi Huy va` anh Kie^.m va^n~ la` hai ngu*o*i` ba.n tha^n nhu* thu*o*? nao` ba chung’ min`h co’ nhau va` ca^n` nhau.
Vinh~ bie^.t Kie^.m, vinh~ bie^.t Huy, vinh~ bie^.t cuo^.c ddo*i` ddau kho^? cua? to^i..
Nguyên~ Thi. Thu Phu*o*.ng
Ga^p’ la.i quye^n? nha^.t ky’ cua? Phu*o*.ng, kho^ng bie^t’ to^i dda~ khoc’ tu*` luc’ nao`, chi? bie^t’ nu*o*c’ ma(t’ dda~ chay? u*o*t’ ca? ngu*.c ao’. To^i nhin` Kie^.m tha^y’ hai hang` le^. tre^n ma’ cua? Kie^.m ddang chay? dai`, to^i ddu*ng’ le^n ddi ra khoi? qua’n vo*i’ mo^.t ta^m su*. ho^n? loa.n, to^i bu*o*c’ ddi nhu* mo^.t cai’ xac’ kho^ng ho^n`. Kie^.m hoi? to^i:
_O^ng kho^ng muo^n’ bie^t’ Phu*o*.ng ddu*o*.c cho^n no*i nao` sao?
_To^i chi? muo^n’ hoi? o^ng mo^.t ca^u. Ma^y’ co^ gai’ trong dda^y co’ gi` ho*n Phu*o*.ng ma` o^ng la.i vi` ho. ma` gie^t’ ddi cuo^.c ddo*i` cua? Phu*o*.ng?
_To^i the^` vo*i’ o^ng la` to^i chu*a tu*ng` ddi ngu? vo*i’ ma^y’ co^ trong nay`, vi` to^i ghen vo*i’ o^ng,luc’ nao` co’ o^ng Phu*o*.ng cung~ cu*o*i` tu*o*i va` ho^n` nhie^n ho*n khi nang` be^n to^i ne^n to^i muo^n’ Phu*o*.ng phai? chia xe? su*. ddau kho^? cua? to^i. To^i chi? ddi cho*i tho^i kho^ng co’ lam` gi` ca?, o^ng kho^ng tin to^i thi` o^ng cu*’ hoi? ho. ddi.
_Mo^. cua? Phu*o*.ng o*? dda^u?
_Nghia~ trang Ta^n Ddi.nh, mo^. ddu*o*.c xa^y ba(ng` ga.ch men tra(ng’ du*o*i’ hang` tho^ng vi` Phu*o*.ng thich’ nghe tho^ng reo.
To^i bu*o*c’ ra khoi? quan’ la^y’ xe cha.y tha(ng? ve^` nha`, la^y’ vai` thu*’ ca^n` dung` va` dde^? la.i vai` lo*i` nha(n’ cho ngu*o*i` nha`, to^i’ lai’ xe trong dde^m to^i’ vo*i’ chie^c’ dden` pin dung` dde^? do` ddu*o*ng` ddi vao` mo^. cua? Phu*o*.ng, theo lo*i` cua? Kie^.m, to^i kho^ng ga(.p kho’ kha(n khi tim` mo^. cua? Phu*o*.ng. DDu*ng’ nhin` ngo^i mo^. cua? ngu*o*i` to^i ha(ng` o^m a^p’ mo^i’ tinh` ca^m nin’, nang` ddang na(m` ddo’ ddo*.i to^i, to^i bu*o*c’ la.i ga^n` be^n ta^m’ bia co’ kha(t’ te^n cua? nang` va` ta^m’ hinh` cua? ba ddu*a’ chung’ to^i luc’ con` ho.c chung.
_Phu*o*.ng o*i anh dda~ dde^n’ vo*i’ em ro^i` da^y, em so*. su*. ye^n ti.nh va` co^ do*n la(m’ phai? kho^ng? Em kho^ng con` phai? so*. nu*a~, anh se~ dde^n’ dde^? cung` o*? be^n em, Phu*o*.ng ddo*.i anh nghe, cho du` anh dde^n’ tre^? ho*n mo^.t tua^n` nhu*ng tro*i` se~ cho anh ga(.p la.i em ma`, ddo*.i anh nghe Phu*o*.ng!…
Sang’ ho^m sau ngu*o*i` ta vao` ta? mo^. tha^y’ xac’ cua? hai ngu*o*i` ddan` o^ng na(m` gu.c tre^n ngo^i mo^. tra(ng’ cua? co^ Nguye^n~ Thi. Thu Phu*o*.ng, hai cai’ xac’ dda~ bi. cu*ng’ tu*` la^u, tre^n tay cua? mo^.t ngu*o*i` con` ca^m` lo. tho^c’ ngu? va` quye^n? nha^.t ky’ bia` dden, ngu*o*i` na(m` be^n kia ngo^i mo^. tre^n tay cung~ ca^m` lo. thuo^c’ dda~ tro^ng’ kho^ng va` be^n ca.nh co’ mo^.t chai ru*o*.u ma.nh. Cai’ che^t’ ky` la. cua? hai ngu*o*i` ddan` o^ng lam` cho mo.i ngu*o*i` xo^n xao ban` tan’.
Ba ngay` sau hai ngo^i mo^. mo*i’ ddu*o*.c xa^y le^n be^n ca.nh ngo^i mo^. tra(ng’. Nghe lo*i` ddo^n` cua? nhu*ng~ ngu*o*` o*? chung quanh ddo’ noi’, mo^i~ to^i’ tha^y’ co’ ba cai’ bong’ tra(ng’, mo^.t nu*~ hai nam thu*o*ng` quanh qua^n? chung quanh ddo’ ne^n ngu*o*i` ta kho^ng dam’ ddi ra nghia~ trang vao` luc’ tro*i` vu*a` su.p to^i’….
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_Anh hai’ hoa phu*o*.ng lam` bu*o*m’ ta(.ng em nghe Phu*o*.ng?
_Em kho^ng chi.u dda^u, em muo^n’ bu*o*m’ thie^.t kia`
_Huy ba(t’ bu*o*m’ kho^ng ddu*o*.c dda^u, tho^i dde^? anh ddi ba(t’ bu*o*m’ cho em nghe?
_Va^.y anh Kie^.m ba(t’ bu*o*m’ cho em, anh Huy lam` gi` cho em ne`?
_Anh ha?, anh ke^? chuye^.n vui cho em cu*o*i `
_Anh co’ nu. cu*o*i` vo^ tu* va` tu*o*i la(m, em muo^n’ tha^y’ nu. cu*o*i` ddo’ no*? hoai` tre^n mo^i anh.
_Anh hu*a’ vo*i’ em se~ kho^ng bao gio*` ddanh’ ma^t’ nu. cu*o*i` nay`, anh se~ mang no’ theo cho dde^n’ ho*i tho*? cuo^i’ cung` cua? anh.
_Em muo^n’ minh` la^.p mo^.t lo*i` the^`vo*i’ nhau la` suo^t’ ddo*i` ba ngu*o*i` min`h kho^ng ddu*o*.c ro*i` xa, co’ ai la^.p gia ddinh` thi` cung~ phai? do.n ve^` o*? ga^n` nhau dde^? quan ta^m cho nhau ddu*o*.c kho^ng?
_DDu*o*.c chu*’, Huy o^ng coi hinh` ba ngu*o*i` min`h chu.p chung co’ dde.p kho^ng?
_O^`, dde.p qua’, ba ngu*o*i` min`h mo^i~ ngu*o*i` mang mo^.t nu. cu*o*i` khac’ nhau nhu*ng nu. cu*o*i` nao` cung~ dde.p va` tu*o*i.
_DDa^u? cho em coi ti’ ddi, em tha^y’ nu. cu*o*i` cua? anh Huy tu*o*i ho*n ddo’, em co’ y’ kie^n’ nay`. Ne^u’ co’ luc’ nao` mo^.t trong ba ngu*o*i` min`h che^t’ thi` dde^? hinh` nay` tre^n ta^m’ bia cua? min`h co’ ddu*o*.c kho^ng hai anh?
_Y’ kie^n’ cua? Phu*o*.ng hay ddo’, to^i ddo^ng` y’, con` o^ng thi` sao Kie^.m?
_Di~ nhie^n to^i cung~ tan’ thanh`.
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_Phu*o*.ng o*i! Te^n cua? em gio^ng’ nhu* loai` hoa phu*o*.ng chi? no*? ddo? tha(m’ vao` mua` he` nhu*ng chi? ca^n` ho*i gio’ cua? mua` thu thi` hoa phu*o*.ng se~ tan` ddi dde^? cho*` 9 thang’ sau la.i no*? cho mua` he` ke^’
_Te^n anh la` Huy ne^n cuo^.c ddo*i` cua? anh se~ ddu*o*.c huy hoang` va` se~ tu*o*i mat’ nhu* nu. cu*o*i` cua? anh.
_Anh Kie^.m thi` ca^n` kie^.m, va` se~ la` ngu*o*i` cho^ng`, ngu*o*i` cha to^t’ vo*i’ vo*. con.
_Noi’ va^.y thi` Phu*o*.ng chi.u la^y’ anh lam` cho^ng` kho^ng? anh se~ ye^u em mai~ mai~ kie^p’ nay` luo^n ca? kie^p’ sau!!!
_La.y Chua’, ne^u’ ye^u la` co’ to^.i,
Du*.ng loai` ngu*o*i` sao chua’ du*.ng con tim?
La.y Chua’, ne^u’ ye^u la` co’ to^.i,
Thi` suo^t’ ddo*i` con pha.m to^.i Chua’ o*i!!!
SaiGon ngay`…thang’…na(m1973
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