CÓ PHẢI EM LÀ HẠ NH PHÚC

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CÓ PHẢI EM LÀ HẠNH PHÚC

Cuo^i’ thang’ tu* na(m 1975, ngay` mie^n` Nam Vie^.t Nam bi. bu*c’ tu*? trong tay co^.ng san?, cac’ tu*o*ng’ lanh~ va` qua^n da^n ma.nh ai na^y’ tim` ddu*o*ng` ddi ra khoi? nu*o*c’ cha.y tro^n’ bo.n co^.ng san?. Tuy nhie^n, va^n~ con` mo^.t so^’ tu*o*ng’ lanh~ va` qua^n nha^n o*? la.i chie^n’ dda^u’ dde^n’ gio*` phut’ cuo^i’ cung`, gia ddinh` cua? to^i la` mo^.t trong toan` the^? da^n Vie^.t bi. ke.t la.i dde^? cung` chi.u chung so^’ pha^.n vo*i’ dda^t’ nu*o*c’. Na(m ddo’ to^i vu*a` le^n 13 tuo^i?, vi` la` con cua? gia ddinh` “ngu.y” cho ne^n to^i kho^ng ddu*o*.c vao` tru*o*ng` hoc, to^i phai? phu. ba me. lam` a(n buo^n ban’ ngoai` cho*. dde^? kie^m’ so^ng’ qua ngay`. Na(m to^i le^n 18, to^i vu*o*.t bie^n qua DDu*c’ ty. na.n va` ba(t’ dda^u` theo mo^.t nhom’ ngu*o*i` con` o*? trong bu*ng chie^n’ dda^u’ chong’ la.i chinh’ quye^n` co^.ng san? Vie^.t Nam, to^i thu*o*ng` len’ ddi qua Lao`, Campuchia va` Thailand dde^? lam` co^ng vie^.c ddu*a tin. Mai~ cho dde^n’ na(m 1988, vi` nhom’ cua? to^i bi bo.n tinh` bao’ co^.ng san? phat’ giac’, to^i buo^.c long` phai? tro*? la.i so^ng’ be^n DDu*c’.
Nhu*ng~ thang’ na(m ta.m tho*i` gac’ vie^.c dda^u’ tranh qua mo^.t be^n dde^? so^ng’ cuo^.c ddo*i` cua? mo^.t ngu*o*i` da^n binh` thu*o*ng`, to^i thu*o*ng` ddi qua bie^n gio*i’ Tie^.p cho*i. Tu*` no*i to^i o*? sang bien gio*i’ Tie^.p Kha(c’ chi? ma^t’ hai tie^ng’ ddo^ng` ho^` lai’ xe, cho ne^n to^i hay qua mua hang` hoa’ vo*i’ gia’ re~, nho*` ddo’ ma` to^i quen nhie^u` ngu*o*i` ba.n Vie^.t Nam ty. na.n be^n Tie^.p.
Thang’ 11 na(m 1989, ngay` bu*c’ tu*o*ng` Barlin su.p ddo^?. Phu*o*c’, ngu*o*i` thanh nie^n Vie^.t Nam ddi qua Tie^.p lao ddo^.ng dda~ cung` vo*i’ nhom’ ngu*o*i` lo*.i du.ng tho*i` co* ddo’ tu*` Tie^.p cha.y qua DDu*c’ xin ty na.n. Trong tho*i` gian Phu*o*c’ con` o*? trong tra.i ty. na.n cua? DDu*c’ thu*o*ng` qua la.i noi’ chuye^.n vo*i’ to^i ne^n hai ngu*o*i` dda~ lam` ba.n kha’ tha^n. Mo^i~ ngay` Phu*o*c’ ddem hinh` cua? co^ em gai’ cua? Phu*o*c’ cho to^i xem va` ngo? y’ nho*` to^i giup’ ddu*a co^ a^y’ qua DDu*c’. Thoa.t dda^u` to^i kho^ng dde^? y’ va` cung~ kho^ng co’ hu*ng’ thu’ dde^n’ chuye^.n vo*. con vi` con tim cua? to^i dda~ trao he^t’ cho quye^ hu*o*ng va` da^n to^.c Vie^.t Nam. DDa^u` na(m 1999, la^n` cuo^i’ cung` to^i ddi du li.ch qua ThaiLand, ddo^ng` tho*i` dde^? lam` co^ng vie^.c lie^n la.c vo*i’ nhom’ ba.n dda~ cung` chie^n’ dda^u’ ngay` xu*a. Trong luc’ to^i ddang xach’ vali ra xe taxi dde^? ra phi tru*o*ng` thi` ga(.p Phu*o*c’ ddu*ng’ ngay tru*o*c’ cu*a? nha` leo’ nheo’:
_O^ng lam` o*n ddu*a em gai’ to^i qua ddi, co^ a^y’ cung~ dde.p gai’ va` gioi? nu*a~
Vi` ga^p’ ddi ne^n to^i noi’ dda.i vo*i’ Phu*o*c’:
_Tho^i ddu*o*.c ro^i`, o^ng cu*’ lie^n la.c vo*i’ te^n So*n thi.t heo o*? bie^n gio*i’ Tie^.p ddi, noi’ vo*i’ ha(n’ vie^.c minh` muo^n’ ha(n’ giup’ ddu*a Nhu* Huye^n` qua ro^i` khi to^i ve^` se~ giao tie^n`, dde^n’ luc’ ddo’ ne^u’ co^ a^y’ ye^u to^i thi` so^ng’ vo*i’ to^i, ne^u’ kho^ng ye^u to^i thi` coi nhu* to^i giup’ co^ a^y’ tho^i
So*n thi.t heo la` te^n dda^u` mo^i’ ddu*o*ng` gia^y ddu*a ngu*o*i` ddi la^.u qua Tie^.p Kha(c’, ha(n’ ta moc’ no^i’ vo*i’ bo.n can’ bo^. cao ca^p’ trong nu*o*c’ dde^? lam` gia^y’ to*` gia? ro^i` nha^.n tie^n` cua? tha^n nha^n o*? nu*o*c’ ngoai`. Trong di.p tin`h co*`, to^i dda~ quen ddu*o*.c vo*i’ So*n thi.t heo trong nha` hang` Vie^.t Nam ngay bie^n gio*i’ DDu*c’ va` Tie^.p. Noi’ la` nha` hang` cho sang chu*’ tha^.t ra ddo’ chi? la` mo^.t cai’ phong` nho? trong tra.i linh’ cua? Tie^.p Kha(c’ dda~ hu* hao ma` ngu*o*i` Tie^.p cho ngu*o*i` Vie^.t mu*o*n’ dde^? buo^n ban’. Nha` hang` ddo’ na(m` trong cho*. o*? trong tinh? Cheb cach’ bie^n gio*i’ DDu*c’ va` Tie^.p 10 ca^y so^’, cho*. ddu*o*.c go.i la` Dragon Market. O*? dda^y, mo^.t na(m bo^n’ mua`, ngu*o*i` ban’ hang` chi? ca^n` gia(ng cai’ ta^m’ nylon che va` mo^.t cai’ xa.p ba(ng` go^~ , cu*’ the^’ ma` ddu*ng’ ban’ hang` kie^m’ so^ng’. Tho*i` gian to^i va(ng’ nha`, Phu*o*c’ lam` co^ng vie^.c lie^n la.c vo*i’ te^n So*n thit heo dde^? bie^t’ gia’ ca? va` ddu*a tin tu*c’ cua? Nhu* Huye^n` cho ha(n’ ba(t’ dda^u` co^ng vie^.c ddu*a ngu*o*i` ddi la^.u ra nu*o*c’ ngoai`.
Mo^.t thang’ sau, khi to^i tu*` ThaiLand ve^` DDu*c’, bo.n ngu*o*i` cua? ddu*o*ng` da^y vao` Vung~ Tau` ddu*a Nhu* Huye^n` ddi lam` passport ro^i` ddu*a tha(ng? ra Ha` No^.i dde^? cho*` ngay` ddu*a ddi qua Tie^.p. Ba(ng? ddi vai` thang’ kho^ng nghe tin tu*c’ gi` cua? Nhu* Huye^n`, to^i nong’ long` goi die^.n thoa.i noi’ chuye^.n vo*i’ So*n thi.t heo thi` mo*i’ ddu*o*.c ha(n’ cho bie^t’ vao` ngay` thang’ ddo’ dde^n’ bie^n gio*i’ Tie^.p dde^? nha^.n ngu*o*i` va` giao tie^n`. DDung’ ngay` he.n, to^i lai’ chie^c’ xe Suzuki chay dde^n’ ddie^m? he.n. Ho^m ddo’ vi` ly’ do ky~ thua^.t ne^n to^i dda~ dde^n’ ddie^m? he.n tre^?, nhom’ ngu*o*i` cua? So*n thi.t heo phai? lie^n la.c vo*i’ to^i qua phone tay vi` ho. phai? cha.y ddi giao ngu*o*i` o*? nhu*ng~ no*i khac’. Cuo^.c dduo^i? ba(t’giu*a~ to^i va` nho’m ddu*o*ng` da^y giao ngu*o*i` nhu* tro` cho*i cu*o*p’ ba(t’ tha^.t ga^y ca^n’ y nhu* nhu*ng~ cuo^.c dduo^i? ba(t’ so^i no^i? giu*a~ nhom’ xa~ ho^.i dden trong nhu*ng~ ddoa.n film hao` hu*ng’ cua? My~. Cuo^i’ cung`, to^i kho^ng lam` sao dde^? ba(t’ ki.p chie^c’ xe Zeep cho*? ngu*o*i`. Bo.n ngu*o*i` cua? So*n thi.t heo he.n to^i o*? mo^.t ddi.a ddie^m? be^n ngoai` khu ru*ng` hoang ga^n` ranh gio*i’ DDu*c’ va` Tie^.p, to^i dde^n’ ddi.a ddie^m? he.n tru*o*c’ va` ddu*ng’ cho*`.
Tru*o*c’ khi ddi, to^i dda~ kho^ng que^n mang theo kha^u? sung’ AK ba’ xe^p’ (AK 47) ma` to^i mua la^.u no*i mo^.t te^n linh’ Tie^.p dde^? phong` khi ba^t’ tra(c’ thi` co’ the^? dung`. To^i dda~ quen so^ng’ la(n lo^.n vo*i’ ddo*i` ne^n thu*o*ng` hay lo xa khi phai? ddo^i’ die^.n vo*i’ nhu*ng~ vie^.c nhu* va^.y. DDung’ 8 gio*` to^i’, chie^c’ xe Zeep bich’ bung`, ba(ng ghe^’ phia’ tre^n go^m` co’ mo^.t ga~ tai` xe^’ va` mo^.t ga~ ddan` o^ng khac’ ngo^i` be^n ca.nh. Chie^c’ xe du*ng` la.i be^n ca.nh chie^c’ Suzuki cua? to^i, ga~ ddan` o^ng co’ khuo^n ma(.t chu*~ ddie^n` nhin` kho^ng chut’ cam? tin`h bu*o*c’ la.i noi’ vo*i’ to^i ba(ng` gio.ng ba(c’ dda(.c.
_To^i ddu*a ngu*o*i` dde^n’ ro^i` dda^y, o^ng mo^.t tay giao tie^n`, mo^.t tay nha^.n ngu*o*i`.
Lo^i’ noi’ chuye^.n cua? ga~ y nhu* nhu*ng te^n “anh chi.” nhu*ng kho^ng mo^.t chut’ nao` lam` cho to^i so*. hai~ To^i chi? lo la` kho^ng bie^t’ lam` sao dde^? nha^.n ra Nhu* Huye^n`, to^i chi? tha^y’ hinh` cua? co^ a^y’ vai` la^n` tho^i ne^n cung~ kho^ng bie^t’ trong xe ddo’ ai la` Nhu* Huye^n` dde^? ddon’. May sao luc’ ddo’ trong xe chi? con` mo^.t co^ gai’ tuo^i? ddo^. 30 ngoai`, tha^n hinh` o^m’ ye^u’, sa(c’ ma(.t trong dde^m du*o*i’ anh’ dden` chie^c’ xe cua? to^i tro^ng nho*.t nha.t, ho^c’ hac’, me^.t moi? vi` bi. gia(ng` soc’ trong ddoa.n ddu*o*ng` tu*` Ha` No^.i Vie^.t Nam qua dde^n’ Tie^.p Kha(c’. Trong luc’ ga^p’ rut’ ddo’, to^i cung~ nhu* ngu*o*i` con gai’ ddo’ kho^ng ca^n` bie^t’ co’ ddung’ ngu*o*i` cua? minh` kho^ng, to^i chi? bie^t’ mo^.t tay ddu*a tie^n`, mo^.t tay nha^.n ngu*o*i`. Tru*o*c’ khi buo^ng tay ca^m` tie^n`, to^i hoi? co^ gai’ a^y’:
_Em co’ sao kho^ng? Em con` cai’ gi` tre^n xe kho^ng?
Nhu* Huye^n` la(c’ dda^u` noi’ vo*i’ gio.ng ye^u’ o*t’:
_Em kho^ng sao, em cung~ kho^ng co’ gi` tren xe.
Chi? noi’ ddu*o*.c mo^.t ca^u ddo’ thi` Nhu* Huye^n` dda~ nga~ xiu? trong tay cua? to^i vi` ddoi’ va` me^.t. To^i ddo*~ Nhu* Huye^n` le^n xe lai’ chay ve^` nha`. Ve^` dde^n’ nha`, Nhu* Huye^n` ddu*a gia^y’ to*` va` passport cho coi thi` mo*i’ bie^t’ toan` la` gia^y’ to*` gia? ma` bo.n ddu*o*ng` gia^y lam` dde^? ddi qua bie^n gio*i’ tho^i chu*’ kho^ng co’ ho*.p thu*c’ dde^? xin di tru’ o*? la.i DDu*c’. Sau ngay` ho^m ddo’ to^i phai? ban’ luo^n chie^c’ xe ye^u quy’ cua? minh` dde^? la^y’ tie^n` lam` la.i gia^y’ to*` cho Nhu* Huye^n` ddu*o*.c ho*.p thu*c’.
Hai ho^m sau khi Nhu* Huye^n` dda~ khoe? va` la^y’ la.i tinh tha^n`, nang` ke^? la.i cho to^i va` Phu*o*c’ nghe cuo^.c hanh` trinh` cam kho^? cua? nang`. Nhu* Huye^n` ke^? trong chuye^n’ ddi ddo’ go^m` co’ hai mu*o*i ngu*o*i` phu. nu*~ tuo^i? tu*` hai mu*o*i hai dde^n’ ba mu*o*i. Bo.n chung’ nho^t’ mo.i ngu*o*i` trong chie^c’ xe dung` dde^? cho*? xa(ng nhu*ng trong ddo’ kho^ng chu*a’ xa(ng. Vi` ddoa.n ddu*o*ng` nhie^u` khi nguy hie^m? ne^n tai` xe^’ phai? lai’ nhanh, mo.i ngu*o*i` trong thung` xa(ng bi. xo^c’ va` mo^.t so^’ dda~ bi. che^t’ ngo*.p, so^’ con` la.i cung~ bi. bon chung’ ham? hie^p’ tre^n ddu*o*ng` ddi, Nhu* Huye^n` cung~ la` na.n nha^n cua? chuye^n’ ddi ba(ng` ddu*o*ng` gia^y la^.u. Nhu*ng~ ngay` sau nay` Nhu* Huye^n` hinh` nhu* bi. am’ anh? vi` cuo^.c hanh` trinh` dda^y` nguy hie^m? ddo’ ma` nang` may ma(n’ ddu*o*.c so^ng’ sot’
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Ba na(m sau khi Nhu* Huye^n` dda~ ta.m tho*i` quen vo*i’ cuo^.c so^ng’ o*? DDu*c’, to^i thu*o*ng` khuye^n nang` o*? nha` lo ddi ho.c the^m dde^? bie^t’ tie^ng’ vo*i’ ngu*o*i` ta nhu*ng Nhu* Huye^n` kho^ng nghe, nang` nha^t’ ddi.nh phai? ddi lam`. Nhu* Huye^n` ddi lam` bay? ngay` mo^.t tua^n`, mo^i~ ngay` lam` vie^.c o*? hai no*i khac’ nhau, co’ khi no*i nao` ca^n` ngu*o*i` go.i Nhu* Huye^n` cung~ nha^.n lo*i` ddi lam` luo^n, nhu*ng~ ngay` le^~ Nhu* Huye^n` cung~ ddi lam`. Nhu* Huye^n` ddi lam` nhu* mo^.t cai’ may’, hay noi’ khac’ ho*n la` nang` chi? nghi~ dde^n’ ddi lam` dde^? kie^m’ tie^n` tho^i, ngoai` ra nang` kho^ng chu’ tro^.ng vao` ba^t’ cu*’ chuye^.n gi` khac’. Tho*i` gian Nhu* Huye^n` be^n canh to^i kho^ng co’ bao nhie^u, nhie^u` luc’ to^i them` ddu*o*.c cho*? vo*. tre^n chie^c’ xe ho*i ddi da.o pho^’ va` a(n kem ngay` cuo^i’ tua^n` nhu*ng Nhu* Huye^n` kho^ng chi.u nghi? lam`, nang` cho la` ddi lam` dde^? kie^m’ tie^n` la` quan tro.ng ho*n tho*i` gian vui cho*i ngoai` co^ng vie^n hay ddi a(n qua` vo*i’ cho^ng`. Cuo^.c so^ng’ ba^t’ thu*o*ng` ddo’ cua? Nhu* Huye^n` dda~ lam` cho to^i.cam? tha^y’ co^ ddo*n va` thie^u’ tho^n’ trong vie^.c cha(n go^i’ vo*. cho^ng`. Cung` luc’ ddo’, ma^y’ co^ ba.n gai’ ngu*o*i` ba(c’ cua? Nhu* Huye^n` cung~ vi` hoan` canh? cho^ng` ham me^ lam` vie^.c kie^m’ tie^n` khie^n’ cho ho. cam? tha^y’ chuye^.n tin`h cam? vo*. cho^ng` cua? ho. bi. la.nh nha.t. Nhu*ng~ luc’ to^i o*? nha` mo^.t minh` ho. thu*o*ng` qua cho*i noi’ chuye^.n, co’ khi con` o*? la.i na^u’ a(n chung vo*i’ nhau. Sau mo^.t tho*i` gian qua la.i, chuye^.n gi` dde^n’ thi` cung~ dde^n’, ca? hai be^n dda~ kho^ng ke^m` che^’ ddu*o*.c ban? tha^n va` dda~ pha.m vao` ddie^u` ra(ng thu*’ chin’ ma` ngu*o*i` dda.o Thie^n Chua’ it’ ai muo^n’ vu*o*ng’ phai?.
Su*. vie^.c xa^y? ra tha^.t ba^c’ ngo*` lam` cho to^i cung~ phai? su*ng~ so^t’ tru*o*c’ su*. ba.o da.ng cua? ma^y’ co^ ngu*o*i` Ha` No^.i. Cac’ co^ kho^ng nga^n` nga.i noi’ cho to^i bie^t’ nhu*ng~ gi` ho. mong muo^n’ va` to? y’ muo^n’ cung` ddu*o*.c chia xe? vo*i’ to^i. Ho^m ddo’ co^ ba.n gai’ tha^n cua? Nhu* Huye^n` dde^n’ nha` cho*i dung` bu*a~ tru*a vo*i’ to^i, trong luc’ hai ngu*o*i` ddang tro` chuye^.n va` a(n uo^ng’. Co’ le~ vi` ho*i qua’ chen’, “co^ nang`” kho^ng con` tu*. chu? ddu*o*.c ban? tha^n minh`, bu*o*c’ cha^n loa.ng choa.ng lam` cho tha^n minh` cua? co^ nhu* muo^n’ nga~, gio.ng noi’ le` nhe` cua? mo^.t ke? say, “co^ nang`” noi’ vo*i’to^i:
_Anh bie^t’ kho^ng? Em dda~ dde^? y’ anh la^u ro^i`, tha^.m chi’ co’ luc’ em u*o*c’ mo* ddu*o*.c ga^n` gui? anh, em kho^ng ngo*` mong u*o*c’ ddo’ dda~ thanh` su*. tha^.t. Ho^m nay ddu*o*.c o*? dda^y mo^.t min`h vo*i’ anh, em vui la(m’.
“Co^ nang`” ngo^i` xuo^ng’ ca.nh be^n to^i ddu*a tay co*i? tu*ng` nut’ ao’ ngu*.c cua? to^i cho dde^n’ chie^c’ nut’ ao’ cuo^i’ cung`, “co^ nang`” cui’ xuo^ng’ ho^n le^n ngu*.c cua? to^i. Trong luc’ nga` say,to^i nhu* bi. ddi vao` me^ ho^n` tra^.n, dda^u` oc’ ddie^n ddao? kho^ng con` nho*’ min`h la` ai va` ddang lam` gi`,to^i ddap’ la.i ta^m’ tha^n tin`h cua? “co^ nang`” ba(ng` nhu*ng~ nu. ho^n say dda(m’ ma` dda~ la^u to^i kho^ng co’ di.p dde^? “xu*? du.ng”. Men tinh` la^n~ trong men ru*o*.u, mo^.t tra^.n ma^y mu*a dda~ die^n~ ra ngay trong phong` a(n cua? nha`to^i ma` Nhu* Huye^n` cung~ nhu* cho^ng` cua? “co^ nang`” kho^ng hay bie^t’. Ke^? tu*` ho^m ddo’, nhu*ng~ tra^.n ma^y mu*a khac’ cu*’ the^’ tie^p’ tu.c die^n~ ra ngay trong ca(n nha` ddo’. Nhie^u` khi to^i he.n ho` vo*i’ “co^ nang`” ddi du hi’ o*? nhu*ng~ no*i khac’ xa nha` dde^? thay ddo^i? kho^ng khi’ va` tim` cam? hu*ng’ khac’ la.. Mo^i~ khi co’ tie^.c, to^i va^n~ du*ng~ du*ng ddi be^n ca.nh “co^ nang`”tru*o*c’ ma(.t mo.i ngu*o*`i vi` kho^ng ai ngo*` ddu*o*.c chung’ to^i la` ca(.p nha^n tin`h kho^ng cha^n chinh’. Cuo^.c so^ng’ cua? to^i cu*’ the^’ ma` tie^p’ die^n~ kho^ng ngu*ng` nghi? dde^? chu*ng’ minh cho cai’ tuo^i? Da^n` cua? to^i. Ddan` o^ng tuo^i? Da^n` thu*o*ng` la(ng nha(ng kho^ng chung tin`h.
Ngay` sinh nha^.t cua? to^i Nhu* Huye^n` cung~ kho^ng chi.u nghi? lam` dde^? chia xe? va` du*. tie^.c sinh nha^.t. Tru*o*c’ khi ba.n be` dde^n’ mu*ng` tie^.c thi` “co^ nang`” dda~ co’ ma(.t trong nha` cua? to^i. “Co^ nang`” lo*.i du.ng luc’ chu*a co’ ai dde^n’ muo^n’ go*i? cho to^i mon’ qua` sinh nha^.t ma` thie^t’ nghi~ kho^ng ai ngoai` “co^ nang`” co’ ddu? can ddam? dde^? lam`, le~ ddu*o*ng nhie^n to^i kho^ng da.i gi` tu*` cho^i’ mon’ qua` ddo’. To^i’ ho^m ddo’ Nhu* Huye^n` ddi lam` ve^` chu*a ki.p chao` hoi? mo.i ngu*o*i` trong nha`, nang` ba(t’ tay ngay vao` do.n dep bat’ ddia~ va` ddem rac’ ra bo?. Tuy Nhu* Huye^n` kho^ng co^’ tin`h ga^y su*. hie^u? la^m`, nhu*ng hanh` ddo^.ng ddo’ lam` cho ngu*o*i` ta cam? tha^y’ kho’ chi.u, mo.i ngu*o*i` kho^ng ai bao? ai tu*ng` ngu*o*i` mo^.t tu*` gia? ra ve^`. DDo*i` so^ng’ giu*a~ to^i va` Nhu* Huye^n` cang` ngay` cang` la.nh nha.t. DDa~ nhie^u` ngu*o*i` khuye^n to^i ne^n ddu*a Nhu* Huye^n` ddi kham’ bac’ si~ ta^m tha^n` nhu*ng Nhu* Huye^n` kho^ng chi.u nghi? lam` dde^? ddi bac’ si~.
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Nho*` Internet va` Paltalk, to^i quen bie^t’ mo^.t ngu*o*i` ma` to^i cung~ nhu* nhie^u` ngu*o*i` khac’ phai? co^ng nha^.n la` nang` ra^t’ de^~ thu*o*ng va` te^’ nhi. la.i con` dda tai`. Nhu*ng~ khi chung’ to^i o*? trong cung` mo^.t room cho^ng’ co^.ng, to^i thu*o*ng` dde^? y’ dde^n’ nang`. Su*. ha(ng say va` nhie^.t tin`h cua? nang` co^.ng the^m hao` khi’ cua? mo^.t nu*~ nhi, nang` dda~ lam` cho con tim cua? to^i run ddo^.ng. Mo^i~ la^n` nang` le^n ddong’ gop’ y’ kie^n’, to^i nhu* la` mo^.t ke? bi. tho^i mie^n, to^i ngo^i` la(ng’ nghe say su*a thu*o*ng? thu*c’ gio.ng noi’ dda(.c bie^.t ddo’ va` tie^p’ nha^.n mo^.t dda^u` oc’ phong phu’ dde^? cam? nha^.n ddu*o*.c ta^m ho^n` sa^u sa(c’ cua? nang`. Nhie^u` dde^m ta(t’ may’ ddi ngu? ro^i` ma` trong dda^u` to^i va^n~ con` la^.p ddi la^.p la.i nhu*ng~ ca^u noi’ va` tai to^i va^n~ nghe va(ng va(ng~ tie^ng’ noi’ cua? nang`, kho^ng bie^t’ tu*` luc’ nao`, to^i dda~ tha^m` ye^u nang`. DDa~ nhie^u` la^n` to^i tim` cach’ dde^? noi’ chuye^.n rie^ng vo*i’ nang`. To^i phat’ hie^.n mo^i~ khi to^i co’ di.p dde^? noi’ chuye^.n vo*i’ nang` thi` y nhu* ra(ng`, trong to^i nhu* co’ tang? ba(ng tuye^n’ lam` cho toan` tha^n cu*’ run le^n ba^n` ba^.t. Va^n~ bie^t’ la` to^i kho^ng phai? thuo^.c ha.ng ddan` o^ng nhat’ gai’, hie^.n tu*o*.ng nay` chu*a bao gio*` xa^y? ra vo*i’ to^i. Nhu*ng~ ngu*o*i` phu. nu*~ dda~ tu*ng` ddi qua ddo*i` to^i chi? tu*. nhie^n dde^n’ ro^i` ddi kho^ng dde^? la.i so*.i da^y run cam?, con` nang`. To^i kho^ng bie^t’ phai? die^n? ta? cai’ cam? giac’ cua? to^i ve^` nang` nhu* the’ nao` cho ddung’. Nang` la` mo^.t co^ gai’ tra^n` tu.c u*? Ta^m` thu*o*ng` qua’. Vo*i’ to^i, nang` la` mo^.t tie^n nu*~ hay thie^n tha^n` giang’ the^’, to^i dda~ hoan` toan` bi thu hut’ bo*i~ con ngu*o*i` ddo’.
Ho^m a^y’, ddang luc’ mo.i ngu*o*i` ha(ng say cho^ng’ co^.ng, to^i co^’ la^y’ he^t’ can ddam? dde^? noi’ chuye^.n vo*i’ nang`, hy vo.ng la^n` nay` to^i co’ the^? to? ro~ ta^m su*. cua? to^i vo*i’ nang`. Ho*i~ o^i! Ddoa.n cuo^i’ gia^c’ mo* cua? to^i la` mo^.t ca^u tu*` cho^i’ ba(ng` mo^.t la^n` ta^m su*. ve^` chuye^.n tin`h cam? cua? nang` sau lo*i` to? tin`h cua? to^i.
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Ti`nh co*` nang` quen vo*i’ mo^.t ngu*o*i` thanh nie^n tren Paltalk ro^i` hai ngu*o*i` co’ tin`h cam? vo*i’ nhau. Hai ngu*o*i` quen nhau ddu*o*.c nu*a~ na(m,. trong tho*i` gian quen nhau va` ddi dde^n’ tin`h cam?, nang` luo^n tin lo*i` ngu*o*i` ye^u va` mo^.t long` chung thuy? cho du` nang` chu*a mo^.t la^n` bie^t’ ma(.t hay nghe tie^n’g noi’ cua? chang`, hai ngu*o*i` ra^t’ vui be^n nhau ddi cho*i trong Paltalk. Khi tin`h ye^u ddang tre^n ddu*o*ng` hu*a’ he.n thi` nang` ddu*o*.c tin ngu*o*i` ye^u cua? nang` se~ ddi cu*o*i’ ngu*o*i` khac’. Tin ddo’ dda~ lam` cho nang` ma^t’ he^t’ su*c’ so^ng’ va` ma^t’ long` tin no*i ddan` o^ng. Vi` qua’ ddau buo^n` ne^n nang` dda~ la^m bi.nh, nang` kho^ng con` nghi~ dde^n’ chuye^.n tin`h cam? vo*i’ ai nu*a~.
Nghe nhu*ng~ lo*i` ta^m su*. cua? nang` long` to^i nhu* bi. tha(t’ la.i. Tie^c’ thay mo^.t ta^m’ cha^n tinh` ma` kho^ng ddu*o*.c dde^n` ddap’. Nhu*ng~ ngay` sau nay`, mo^i ~ khi ga(.p nang` to^i cam? tha^y’ trong long` xot’ xa, nhie^u` khi to^i muo^n’ go*.i y’ vo*i’ nang` nhu*ng tha^y’ nang` la.nh lung` qua’ lam` cho to^i e nga.i.
Ddanh` tho^i o^m mo^i’ tin`h ca^m
Nhin` em dde^? u*o*c’ tra(m na(m mo^i’ tinh`
U*o*c’ gi` em o*? ca.nh minh`
To^i nguye^n` sam’ ho^i’ ca? nghin` kie^p’ sau.
Nang` va^n~ be^n ca.nh to^i cho^ng’ co^.ng nhu*ng sao to^i cam? tha^y’ nang` xa vo*i` vo*.i. Nang` nhu* mo^.t vi. cha^n tu con` to^i nhu* la` quy? du*~ ddi theo cam’ do^~ nang`. Mo^i~ ngay` to^i va^n~ cho*` ddo*.i,chi? ca^n` nang` cho to^i mo^.t nu. cu*o*i` thi` ta^m ho^n` to^i se~ a^m’ cung’ va` ha.nh phuc’ bie^t’ bao. Nhu*ng ma`……..
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